Middle School - 7th Grade

My 4th Week of School

Saturday

Let's be real. The good stuff doesn't start till it's been at least a month. It's Saturday night and I'm scared. Why,  you may ask? Well I wrote a note to guy. A note that declares my "liking" to him. The note states that I'm not gonna lie anymore,  yeah I like you,  I'm telling you,  I'm mad at you,  and I don't care what you say to me about this note. The guy is named Wes,  but we're gonna leave his whole actual name out of this for his sake. Wes is a football player,  he's taller than me (and I'm 5"5 at age 12) which is impressive, he's cute (at least to me), he's probably not interested in me, but we'll find that out Monday. Wes may or may not make fun of me for the note but eh I practically asked for it. I've heard he has a girlfriend right now so if he does....uh-oh...but my "squad" (girl friends) say she's fake. Literally. He may be a football player,  but he's not a snob. None of the guys are. They talk about everything the morning after practice or a game but they don't make fun of one another if they fumble or if they're out of bounds ( I don't know football things so don't judge me).

I am so nervous about going back Monday. I have no idea what he's going to say or do, but I have a terrible feeling it won't be good. He could either tell the whole school,  humiliate me, and ignore me forever,  or he could keep it a little secret, playfully tease me about it, and converse with me everyday. I may have given myself away to two friends before I left...I got extremely scared/nervous after I gave him the note. I was so glad that my dad was right there waiting for me after I ran down the stairs trying to avoid Wes since I wanted whatever is gonna happen for Monday.

It's 11:45 P.M for me right now...that's almost 32 hours until I my world changes drastically, emotionally, and...it's gonna be big. I'm gonna try to keep this chapter going a bit longer so I don't waste it all. OH OH OH!!! I almost forgot! Friday the guys (all the football players) were taking my first name and some other guys last name.  Just going through them,  and then it happened....it came... Layla |Wes' last name here|. He didn't say anything against it. He only looked at Mike (the guy who said it)  like he was gonna kill him,  and he also looked surprised. If he heard that name why didn't he join in with the guys going through their last names earlier. To make this look easier let's say Wes' last name is...McJohnson. So Mike said (he's the quaterback by the way) Layla McJohnson, and then he said "that has a nice ring to it"!!! I mean seriously!!!  I was just sitting there in my seat probably with a tomato red face with my mouth hanging. I wanted to slap Mike but,  then I would have gotten it trouble.

I wonder how many pages this would take up in an actual book. Probably 1 and 1/2 or less. You know what I'm gonna double the chapters.  What I mean is I'll take Monday and Tuesday and put them both in an chapter,  but of course I would distinguish them so no one would get confused on which day it is.  For example:

Monday
Blah blah blah typos,  blah blah blah
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Tuesday

Like that. Ok so I'm tired good night you guys. I'm gonna update after I get Monday and Tuesday done without knowing if you guys want more.

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Sunday

I'm awake against my own will...I want to sleep more, but I can't because I'm terrified. I kinda want Sunday to last for as long as possible. We all know why too. I'll probably publish this first chapter Saturday night and say a little Monday morning. I have school so I might or might not forget some things but I'll try to remember it all for all your sakes. I feel like this is gonna turn into my life journal like Diary of A Wimpy Kid™. I want to keep some real things in this book,  so I'm gonna keep first names, states, etc things like that. Also the picture starting the first chapter of my book is NOT mine in any way it was taken by someone else so...

Don't you I've getting a plain cheese pizza after getting sausage and green peppers on all your previous ones.  I do, a lot. It's around 12:30 now. 17 hours until I find it all out. I'm VERY scared right now😅😅. Yeah I'm gonna use emjoi's in my book,  unless of course you guys don't like that then I'll stop.

I bet some of your are like "Yeah I get to know about this girls love life!!" Your welcome. I know that some of you are like "Your to young to have a boyfriend" or "If your scared he could make fun of you,  you probably shouldn't go after him". Well 1 he makes me laugh even if it's unintentional, 2 he's a big dork that sings the Pokemon theme song, 3 he's really nice not only to me (sometimes,  I think he gets frustrated at people when they tease him) but everyone else, and 4 he just...makes me feel safe around him. It's cheesy I know, but that's just how I feel about him. Everyday I have to tell everyone that I don't like him only to hide it because I'm a shy little nerd who doesn't want to express me feelings in front of everyone. That's why I went with a note. I feel that I only have 1 chance to tell 1 guy how I feel. If Wes rejects me I'm gonna feel bad and reject other guys. I'm still going to be friends with them it's just that I won't feel anything more because I'm...'loyal' to Wes, I don't really know what to call it. I doubt any thing interesting will happen for the rest of the day so I think I'm going to publish it now.