Please Stop It Already Hurts

My life

We want her and him please The people that could have been my parents said. Lexa and James meet your new parents Mrs. Young said grabbing both of their arms pulling them over to the people who choose them.
They all hugged each other and walked to Mrs. Youngs office to sign some papers. I already knew they weren't going to pick me I'm 16 i have Black Hair, I'm wearing a Black Veil brides T-Shirt.
They wanted a nice girl who likes Pink and everyone who they knew are rainbows. That was not me at all everyone here pretty much hated me but what can i say they are all bitches and if they are a bitch to me I'm a bitch to them.
I only have two more years left until i can leave this place why would i want to be nice to anyone. You only live once i guess.

I don't want to be adopted but i also do want to be adopted because if i do they will be known as my parents but if i dont i have to stay here. I shouldnt have to have more parents i already had some, well i used too.
My parents died when i was about 8 years old in a car wreck. Thats probably why i feel so connected with Ashley Purdy. Yes the same Ashley Purdy from Black Veil Brides.

I'm sorry Cheyenne Maybe next time
Mrs. Young said putting her hand on my shoulder.
You and me both Know that isn't true Mrs. Young i said walking away from her and to my room which was up the stairs.

I grabbed onto the rail of the stairs and walked up them. I found my room which thankfully i had to myself since i was the oldest one in this whole house except for Mrs. Young who wasn't that young.
She was about 30 or maybe 40 i don't know i never really cared.

I walked into my room which was Painted Black with Red stuff everywhere just to make it look cool.
I walked over to my bed and laid slowly on it.
Maybe tomorrow or maybe the next day I said aloud to myself. Maybe ill be adopted by someone who really cares about me.

I'm really not a bad kid, I have just been down a bad path in my life. I cut before i have tried to kill myself to. I know i shouldn't have but It kinda helped with everything that was going on.
I haven't down it in awhile so the scars are gone from my wrist and my thigh but the memory still haunts me.

"Knock" "Knock" Cheyenne can i come in Mrs. Youngs voice asked threw my door. Your going to anyways so why asked i whispered to myself.
What was that Cheyenne Mrs. Young asked. Just come in I said sitting up on my bed.

Mrs. Young came in and sat on my bed right next to me.

Cheyenne i am really sorry but hey we have two more family's coming over tomorrow. One looking for a daughter and one looking for a sister. You could be either Mrs. Young said to me.
Great i said rolling my eyes then looking down.
Cheyenne please just give them a chance you don't even know the people yet.
Exactly they don't know me either, they are going to judge me just like everyone else I said.
Well maybe if you didn't wear those stupid band T's all the time.
What did you just say I said looking up angrily at Mrs. Young.
I know you think you look good in them but you don't I'm sorry Cheyenne but you don't look good in them.
Get the fuck out of my room I said standing up making Mrs. Young stand up as well.
I'm sorry Cheyenne i didn't mean to ma- Just get the fuck out Now I said walking towards the door and opening it.
Mrs. Young walked to my door and stepped out.

I'm sor- Before Mrs. Young could say her sentence i slammed the door in her face.
I walk over to the mirror hanging on my wall and looked at myself.
I thought i looked good in my Black Veil Brides shirt but i guess other people don't think so.
Oh fucking well i don't care what people think of my shirt or what i look like.
I rolled my eyes and walked to my bed again and laid down the same way as earlier.
I turned over on my side so i was staring at the wall.
I had a MCR Poster on the wall i was staring at just because i couldn't find a black veil brides Poster the day i went to get a poster.
I was just thinking what it would be like not to be in this house with all of these little kids bothering me all the time.
I looked at the clock and it said 12:54 P.M.
Wow i better get to sleep i said to myself. I got up and turned out the light.
I grabbed the blanket that was on the lower half of my bed then laid down on the bed with it covering me up.
I closed my eyes and quickly fell asleep.