Part one. Author note things nobody reads: Yes, I did just make an BMTH reference. If you got that the here is a cookie *throws a cookie at you*. Okay, my like second fan fiction. Be aware. practice makes better. Don't give up on me so fast. So, I'm done babbling. Thanks for reading. Oh! And is the rating okay. I didn't know if i should rate it is PG or PG-13. This is somewhat based off of my thoughts of myself.
Andy's POV:
Nobody understands me. How worthless, and unwanted I am. How nothing I ever do will be worth anything. Sure, I am in a band, we travel and do shit but they don't seem to realize that they would be better off without me there, harassing them. I'm not even that musical. I just should do the world a favor kill myself off. What will I ever do? What have I ever done? Oh yeah, nothing. Not a single fucking thing.
How could have I? How could I have told Ash about my feelings for him. What makes me think he could ever love something as pathetic as me back? He'll probably never even talk to me again.
I can't handle this. Iwalk over to my bunk and reach for the small plastic box under my matress. Opening it I took out my rusted bloodstained paper-thin. What the hell? I needed to take better care of my blades.
Sliding it across my wrist one time, two times, three, and four. The painful sting was beautiful. Like air after suffocating for what feels like hours. I feel tears start to fall. Tears of regret, anger, and, self-hatred. How could I have told Ashley? I have ruined everything. As I always do. Pathetic piece of shit I am.
Taking my still crying body to my desk I set to writing feeling suddenly inspired.
I ruled the world.
With these hands I shook the heavens to the ground.
I laid the gods to rest.
I held the key to the kingdom.
Lions guarding castle walls.
Hail the king of death.
Then I lost it all
Dead and broken.
My back's against the wall.
Cut me open.
I'm just trying to breathe,
Just trying to figure it out
Because I built these walls to watch them crumbling down.
I said, "Then I lost it all."
And who can save me now?
I stood above
Another war,
Another jewel upon the crown.
I was the fear of man.
But I was blind.
I couldn't see the world there right in front of me.
But now...I can... (Yeah)
'Cause I lost it all
Dead and broken.
My back's against the wall.
Cut me open.
I'm just trying to breathe,
Just trying to figure it out
Because I built these walls to watch them crumbling down.
I said, "Then I lost it all."
And who can save me now?
(Oh)
I believe that we all fall down sometimes (Oh)
Can't you see (can't you see) that we all fall down sometimes?
I believe that we all fall down sometimes
Can't you see that we all fall down sometimes?
I believe that we all fall down sometimes Yeah
