Having suicidal thoughts that make me do things to my body because
Nobody was listening, nobody appreciates me,
Nobody understand the things that I went through in life at this young of age
Nobody know the things that I do, nobody seems to care or realize
Always kept everything inside, nobody knew the real me
But I always had this guard up and this shield that is protecting me
Knowing that it's not my fault but why do I think this way
I don't know, it's just my thought so why do I think so deep and so hard
Sometimes that it scares me
Why don't my dreams and wishes come true,
Why does this lifestyle that I live is happening to me in particular
Well you are going through so much, being tired, barley sleeping
Tossing and turning at night wishing someone was here to understand
And hear me, wishing someone was by my side
I would like to be dreaming and dreaming and dreaming of something
That will not be so harsh and that's peaceful
Don't understand sometimes I ask (Who Am I) what would I like to be
Always wish upon a star but never seems to be I don't know
I figured it just something I do cause nobody understands me
I can tell you all day long something but it's so rare that I get any attention
I just don't get it but then I started being crazy and I would be so stressed out
Started cutting then I wouldn't do it again but started cutting bleeding hurting
And in pain never told, never said a word because I figured if they really cared
They would recognize these things
I'm not even afraid to die its just how I'm going to die plus the people I'll be leaving behind
Whatever it is it's for a reason cause I live for something but I don't know what it is
Confusing and discrimination is not what I wanna be I don't want to be lonely no, not me
I don't want to pretend to be you, I don't want to looK like you, dress like you or even talk
Like you I can't, I just want do it
I always did t on my own, always by myself always alone with no ones help
Not knowing what it was
Always dealing with problems by myself, always did the things that I did on my own
Always independent, strong not knowing, not telling
I don't know but something deep that will show that I will be proud of and all the others
Will be proud of me as well I would have something to show for and to tell
I wouldn't be by myself anymore because I will have others to show for
So now that I'm back on my feet I know I cannot be defeated
Standing tall and strong telling them that you can't have me,
You can't beat me so stand behind me cause no more will
I let you try to break me down and have me because even though nobody
Understand me I will always be me
