I look outside my window on a cold rainy day
The rain drops resemble my tears that I try to wipe away
My heart aches so much that I want to give in
To the inevitable moans of anguish that have yet to begin
I'm trying hard to be strong and not show my pain
I know I have to get ready to make my journey out in the rain
I get dressed do my hair and makeup then stare into the mirror
What happened to my smile because it seems to have disappeared
The last time it was seen I was wrapped up in your arms
I was safe warm and sure that I would never be harmed
But I was surely wrong because now my hearts breaking
Ever since you left me there alone, cold, and shaking
It was raining that night like it is today
That night when we ended and you went away
It pained me so much to know that we were over
As I picked up the rose you gave me laying in a puddle of water
That night I knew nothing would ever be the same
I'd spend my days crying at even the mention of your name
It's been a year since that night and my wounds are still fresh
I still wake up with my heart hurting and looking a mess
But today I have to go out and face the world I've been hiding from
And I must do it alone even though friends and family asked to come
I grab an umbrella and a rose and make my way out in the rain
I go to the place I've been dreading and soon creeps in the pain
I start remembering that night and I can't try and stay strong anymore
I drop to my knees and weep in front of the headstone of the man I once adored
