"Self Control"

Some thoughts

At times I feel very

very different

and I do not know whether that is good or bad

some positives

I'm finding myself

piece by piece

and step by step

I'm getting my mojo back

I'm gaining comfort in being alone

realizing my knowledge can't be brought

more negatives

a little self hate in the mix

add a little low self esteem

like why can't I find love

why can't I hold his attention

Am I not enough

Anyway I put myself back on the market

I'm more vulnerable to success

learning

accepting

that in order to succeed I must fail

must face fear itself

I'm more in tune with my thoughts than ever before

and I wonder again

if that makes me different

in a good way

or negative light

there's some positives

and some bad sides