Scars

Sweet Saturday pt 1

I woke up to somebody shaking me. I looked up to see my mom and dad. I jumped up to hug them both.

T: MOM! DAD! I missed you!

TM: We missed you too babygirl.

TD: How are you hunny?

T: Im fine, how are you guys?

TD: Were great, we finally got a day off.

T: I see, im so glad you guys are home

I said hugging both of them again. I finally released them and looked at them both. I swear i missed them so much.

T: How long are u guys staying?

TM: About a month sweetie.

I jumped up and down so thrilled to hear that. I cant be too excited tho because they dont always follow through on their word.

TM: Its 12:00 in the afternoon, why are u still sleeping?

Asked my mom with her hands on her hips.

TD: Is what is that bandage on your arm?

I gasped because i totally forgot about that.

TM: TANARA MARY LEE JACKSON WHAT HAVE YOU BEEN DOING SINCE WEVE BEEN GONE?

My mother yelled. I looked down ashamed at myself. I promised them i wouldn't cut when they left, but i figured theyre not here ever anyway so why does it matter?

TD: Answer your mother T.

T: I havent been doing anything.

TM: HOW DARE YOU LIE TO ME? SHOW ME RIGHT NOW!

T: But mo-

TD: NOW TANARA!

Tears ran down my face as i removed my bandage.I hated to be yelled at so much. As i removed my tan bandage, my parents gasped. (Picture in MM #1 Trigger warning blood)

TM: Tanara, how could you do that? AGAIN? I told you to call me if you needed to talk.

T: I did try to call, i tried everyday since you guys left and nobody called me bk. I couldnt handle it on my own and you guys know i dont have any friends.

My mother sat in thought for a minute while my dad checked his phone.

TD: Shes right stace, look.

My dad showed my mom what i assume is his call log. She broke down in tears, hugging me.

TM: Im so sorry baby girl, i didn't know you tried to get in touch with us. Im so so so sorry.

She cried harder in my arms, i cried with her. My mom held me tight, like she didn't wanna let go,i savored this moment knowing that it wasn't gonna last forever. Eventually we all let go and wrapped my arm bk up. They made me promise that it will never happen again. I made the promise but, im gonna do it again. Its my only coping strategy. After i was all wrapped up my parents and i walked into the living room. We discussed how our lives were and after i told them about all my small clothes, we agreed to go to the mall. I got up, went to my room and took my clothes out. I layed out a cute white top and yellow shorts. I went and took a quick shower and washed my thick hair. I got out and got quickly dressed. I applied some light makeup and added some moisturizer into my hair. Since my hair has a pretty curled pattern, i usually like to wear it that way. I slipped on some black flat shoes. (MM #2) I looked in the mirror and smiled. I hated my looks but sometimes, when i got myself together i looked really good.

I walked out of my room and seen my mom made breakfast. She made my favorite hashbrowns, eggs and bacon. (MM #3) I smiled and sat down to eat. We ate and joked around talking about silly things. We waited until mom washed the dishes and then we left for the mall.