What I could never have

Chapter 33

*Taylor's P.O.V.*

"Do you love me?" I look Niall in the eyes. "Wh-What?" He gets really flustered. "I said, do you love me?" I already know the answer. "I- uh I-" He was left speechless. "I know you do. I've heard you in your sleep, calling out for me. I can't say I don't do the same, because I'm fairly sure I do the same. I can't stop dreaming about you. I can't stop thinking about you. I can't get you out of my head And frankly I dont want to. I like you, Niall Horan. A lot. And as much as I don't want to, I've fallen for you. Hard. But soon, that doorbell is going to ring. And you will have to make a choice. A difficult one. The girl that is only a way to distract yourself from me, or me. Choose wisely. And remember, every choice you make, has a consequence. If you choose her or me, you'll get a consequence." I finished my little speech and the doorbell rang. As he got up I simply said, "Time to choose." He looked lost for words as he got up and answererd the door. "Niall!" Hayley's squeakey voice came through the doorway. "Hi Hayley." Niall looked like he was on the death march when she hugged him. When she saw me her face instantly fell. She quckly recovered, saying, "You don't look so good, are you sick?" She tried to sound genuine, but I could tell she didn't care. "I'm just fine, actually." I smiled my kindest smile at her. I was going to take this girl down a notch tonight. She sat down at the table with us, and I smiled the most genuine smile at her. "Niall, could you go get me a drink please? Like coke?" she batted her eyelashes and I jumped in. "Me too please. Just water though." I smiled at Niall. Hayley gave me a death glare. As soon as Niall was out of the room, I hit the record button on the voice recorder on my phone. "So. You finally decided to come out of your room? Bad choice my dear, you're going to regret it. Has everyone at this table heard about her little scars? Dear, show them." Her perfect image fell. "Ok." I smiled at her knowing what would come next. I turned my wrists out so they could see what I had carved into my arm years ago when people had first started bullying me.

*Flashback*

I slammed the bathroom door shut, sobbing. I don't understand why these girls hate me. They had already made me cut, but today was just awful. They found out about dad. They called me slut and whore and bitch. They made sure I knew it was my fault my dad sexually abused, beat, and almost killed me. I know Sasha followed me home and I have to get this done quick. I pulled out my razor and instead of cutting normally, I carve the word 'DEATH' into my arm in the bright red ink.

*end flashback*

"You see? She's nothing but a little attention whore. All she wants is the spotlight. She's trying to soak it off from you. All of you. God, why do people like you even exist?" She finished right as Niall walked into the room. I stopped the recording and smiled at her. "Here you guys go, he handed me my water and her her coke. "I think there's something we all want to listen to." I pulled my phone out and turned up the volume. As the recording played Niall looked more and more disgusted. "You little bitch! You recorded that?" Hayley looked furious. "You said that to her? how could you? I thought you liked her!" Hayley rolled her eyes. "Don't be stupid. I hated her. She took your focus off of me and getting me in the spotlight." She crossed her arms. Niall stood up. "Get out. I don't want to ever see you here. Ever. Get out." He opened the door. "Out. Now." Hayley stormed out. "You'll regret this Niall Horan. I promise you you will." He slammed the door. I looked up at him. "Are you ok?" He didn't respond. He looked at me and then kissed me. And it felt like electricity rushed through my veins. And it felt right.

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Hay guys! There's one more chapter left..... *sniffle* I'm going to miss this book. It's my first book that I published on wattpad and will always be special. I love you guys. Xoxox