My Personalities and I (UNDER MAJOR CHANGES)

Chapter 14

I woke to the car suddenly jerking to a stop and someone cursing in the front seat. Luke held me tightly to his chest still with one arm while the other was holding a book. I groggily picked my head up off his chest and looked out the window.

We looked to be stuck in a traffic jam that wasn't moving but an inch at a time.

I looked back to Luke, he had set the book down and was now wearily looking at me, as if waiting for me to attack him or something. I just returned his gaze with a confused one of my own.

"How do you feel?" He cautiously asked me after a few seconds.

I shurgged, "Sleepy still i guess." I mumbled, looking around the backseat of the SUV, not wanting to meet his gaze. My eyes wandered to the book he had set down when he noticed i was awake. The title stuck out to me, it was an odd thing to just randomly be reading. 'How to Deal With Mental Illness in Loved Ones, Book One'.

I guess he follwed my gaze cause he quickly reached over and flipped the book over so the title wasnt visble anymore. I looked back at him questioningly but he seemed unwilling to answer my unvoiced question so i let it go. Instead choosing to study his faciel features.

He was just so darn handsome. Some dirty thoughts popped into my mind and i shook my head to clear them as a blush spread to my cheeks.

"You okay?" His sudden concerned voice made me look at him in confusion. Of course i'm okay, aren't i? I mean, i still don't know who i am... "Who i am...?" The words softly escaped my lips as i mumbled to myself, repeating my thoughts out loud unconsciously.

He softly grabbed my chin and turned my face to look me in the eyes, studying me as if looking for clues. " Do you remem- mm!"

I couldn't help myself, i slammed my lips to his, cutting him off before he could finish his sentence. He didn't fight the kiss, just sat there frozen before roughly returning it. His lips attacking mine aggresivly, his arms that encircled me gripped at my sides tightly, possessivly pulling me closer. And i damn well enjoyed it.

It felt like an eternity had passed when he pulled me back, my breathing was ragged, reminding me that my need for oxygen was still very real. He stared into my eyes for a few seconds, his eyes shifting between his normal brilliant green, to an ominous black, then back to green again. He seemed to be fighting himself.

"What... Was that?" His rugged voice finally came out, sounding strained, and kinda sexy. I heard his words, but my mind didnt register that he was talking to me as i just continued to stare at him, admiring his beauty.

"Eliza?" One of his hands was softly caressing my cheek, making me smile slightly as he brought me out of my thoughts. My face nuzzled into his palm, liking the feeling of his rough calloused skin on my cheek. "Yes?" I purred, assuming he was talking to me, though the name didn't sound familier.

He kissed my forhead, not saying another word. I was lost in thought yet again, running the name through my mind to see if maybe it rings a bell. After a good minute something hits me.

"Izzy."

"What?" Luke seemed confused by my quiet outburst.

"My name is Izzy..." I softly mumbled.

I could see his shoulders slump slightly and his face fell as if he just realized something horrible but was trying to hide it.

I couldn't help but ask, "What's wrong?"

He wouldn't meet my gaze and his hold on me loosened slightly. I leaned back, feeling slightly dejected.

"I was hoping for Eliza." He finally responded, his voice just above a whisper.

I don't know why but it hurt to hear him say that, and at the same time i felt happiness. The two feelings were mingeling and making a weird combination that i couldn't understand and made my skin crawl with unease.

"I don't understand." I finally admitted with a slight shiver.

"Don't worry about it." He sighed softly, looking away from me and out the window, crossing his arms tightly over his chest.

There was a cough and a growl from the front seat.

"You keep changing! You're a cold and ruthless bitch one second, a bubbly little party animal the next, and now this! You're driving us all insane like you." A voice i didnt recognize said as the front seat driver turned around to face us. His hair flapping over his eyes and his nostrils flared in anger.

Luke loudly growled at the lower wolf, a loud smack sounded through the car as he lurched forward and slapped the guy so hard his head hit the window and shattered it.

His words sent a shock through mt entire body and my world did a 360° as past lives flashed through my mind. My eyes glazed over; Eliza, Liza, Liz, Izzy, Izzabella, Iza, so many names ran through my head, all of them playing off my own name. Their faces, or rather my face, flashed through my mind as centuries passed by. I watched hundreds of years pass by. I watched myself die over and over and over again. Always the same way, always at the hands of a warrior with red stained hands. His face changed but his eyes were the same endless black color.

I leaned back and caught myself as another surge shot through me, my eyes glazed over and Eliza came back to the surface.

As i resurfaced, after all this new information my mind was reeling. I leaned back and let all the air out of my body, then took a deep breath and screamed at the top of my lungs. Hundreds of years of surpresed emotions hurdled out of my body with that simple action. Becoming extremely aware of the secondary levels of myself just pacing below the thin fabric of my sanity.

Everything clashed together, the personalities memories all shoved themselves into one, filling gaps i didnt even realize were there.

A hand snapped over my mouth, muffling the banshee like scream that had come out of my mouth. My eyes blanked over for a mere second, then i jammed my elbow into Lukes ribs. How dare he touch me. Oh my gosh! How could i do that! "I'm so sorry! I know you're just here to help me! I'm so sor-... Hahahahahaha! Oh my gosh did you see your face! Hahahahahaha! I mean, i'm totally kinda a little sorry, but that was funny!" I dont know what's going on. I'm going insane. Please, "Help me." The words slipped out of my mouth and i resurfaced again.

Luke was staring at me in fear and worry, not knowing what to do. His left hand gripped my arm and his right went to my neck, where he searched for my pressure point. He pressed down and my world went blank as i blacked out.

I didnt edit this, i just figured yall deserved an update and i have some free time.