Dear Cyrus,
I had no idea how to begin this letter. So I will just start with a few questions that spinned my head for almost 6 years. How are you know? Are you happy in your life? Have you moved on from your mother's death? Have you noticed that I had a crush on you since I was in 3rd grade until I graduated? Are you happy of what you've done to me? Playing with my feelings?
I remembered the time when I first saw you in our neighborhood. I know that from the start, I felt something weird from the beating of my heart. Then that is where I started to have a crush on you. I even hid inside our house everytime you visited our street. A year had passed, I thought that I didn't like you anymore, but it's not just that.
I even remembered the time when I visited to your cousin's house and you were also there. You told me to, "Go home! This is not your house!" Then I answered you back, "Why? This is not even yours." I hurriedly ran home and got inside of my room then cried. Childhood days, I thought that you were mad at me but now I realized that you were just joking. Another year had passed, I thought that I can forget you after of what happened, but I was wrong...again.
I also remembered that everytime you saw me walking outside the school. You pointed at me for once and said to your friends, "Hey! That's the fat girl who had a crush on me for a long time! HAHAHAHAHA!" I felt embarrassed! How could you? I know that I liked you but you had no right to bully me! Why do you keep hurting me? Because you don't like me? Because I'm fat? Because I'm ugly? Well, now I tell you...you are not really handsome! After another year, I thought because of that bullying incident...it's over, but it becomes harder.
My 6th grade! It's been 4 years and I still liked you? Why? I thought that this year, you will be more mean to me...but you became nicer. When one of your boy classmates became close to me, I was shocked that you started to smile at me...gave me a lot of high fives and even talked to me! Why are you nicer now? Because you're worried that I might not have a crush on you anymore because I'm close to him? Dude! Are you playing with my feelings for you? And because of my stupidity of loving you, I even thought that you liked me! But now...I know that it's impossible. I even lost an important person in my life because of loving you! I'm so stupidly inlove with you, Cyrus!
But don't worry! Because now I'm different! Since I started studying here, I stopped having a crush on you because I didn't see you anymore. That's my achievement! But if I had given a chance to see you again...it's alright. I've moved on and now enjoying my life with my new friends. I hoped that we can still be friends. I'm not mad at you, I'm mad of myself because why do I have to love someone for almost 4 years and he didn't even appreciate my feelings. But seriously, everytime I remember these things, I feel alone.
But thank you anyway. Thank you for the memories. Thank you for the 4 years and 7 months experience of reality in love. Thank you for the lesson that you had given to me...don't be stupid when it comes to love, and not just love...don't be stupid always. Use your brain and heart. Thank you again, Cyrus Nocon. I love you...as a friend. I hope that the feeling is mutual. Until next time, friend! ^_^
Sincerely yours,
Bliezille Maynard (Grade 8)
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Author's Note: Hello po!!! Yung kanta pong Porque yung dinedicate ni Bliezille kay Cyrus. Uhm...BASED ON A TRUE TO LIFE STORY PO ITO AS IN LAHAT NANGYARI, sinummarize ko lang po. Secret na lang po muna kung kaninong story ng buhay ito.
Thank you for reading! ^_^
