Before the concert

The day had finally arrived, after months of sheer anticipation and excitement it was the day I was going to see my favourite band: fun. live. This band saved my life, helped me to accept who I am, and embrace my inner weirdness. Most importantly however, I would be seeing the love of my life: Nate Ruess. 

My friends were always sarcastic when I spoke of my feelings for Nate, almost as if mocking me.

"You don't actually know him, how can you be in love with somebody you don't know?"

It was clear to me that they did not understand how I felt, how I dreamt. However, I tried to not let this bother me, but eventually I started to accept that my dreams would never come true, I was one of a million fans, what makes me special enough for Nate to know me and fall for me? I was never going to be with him, and that hurt more than anything imaginable. 

All these thoughts and feelings raced through my head, love is a painful thing and it was no different when loving a member of a Grammy winning band. The pain I was feeling from my realization that Nate would never feel the same had somehow dropped my mood, somehow had made me sad, despite this being a day that I was going to see my idols live. 

Love sure did hurt.