Inspiration In Desperation

 Relationships that take time to develop are the greatest, are they not? Why judge, I say. I believe in love at first sight. Maybe it won't last. But it did happen, anyhow. Every little moment of emotion has a lasting impact on our lives. It might seem ridiculous to some people, but think about it. If your parents had changed something in their life, suppose they went to a different college or not attended at all. Maybe they wouldn't have met and you would not have been born. Although, if it was meant to be, things will always find a way around. People should always have an open mind to new ideas and occurrences. Why shall we hold back our potential? Why be scared of love and friendship.

You can't have the highs without the lows. Of course everybody will go through their worst times thinking there is no possible way out, but it is your choice to fight through it and make your life worth all the pain, or give up all hope. I would rather die trying to make my life worth the space and pain than waste it. Of course, there is only so much a person could do before it becomes the absolute last straw.  Many individuals shy away from friendships and love afraid of being back-stabbed but as soon as they let their guard down enough to realize there are people who truly care about them,  it's the best possible feeling there is.

I should know. I have been abandoned many a times. Nobody is there with you every second of your life because they have their own life to keep up. That doesn't mean they don't care or that they are turning their back on you.  Some of the hardest difficulties are often the ones nobody can help but yourself. It is what makes you realize your true potential. If you are always relying on someone, how will you ever find out how truly amazing you are? It's easy to lay in bed all day and say "forget this" but strength is getting out of your comfort zone and throwing yourself out there for the world to eat you up and roll you back in to make you even better than ever.

Don't say I don't know what I'm talking about because I could be one of the most insecure girls you will ever know. It takes a lot for me to put myself out there and get criticized for what I thought I was good at. And realizing that I'm not, only makes me work to become better version of myself. Numerous times have I been awake past 3 A.M. having a breakdown because I can't seem to be able to do anything right. Though I have been determined to change it and become a better person.