Healing Through Time

Him.

you were like
the little light
that shone through
my dark, black, soul

from the first glimpse
of your tall blonde self
i knew you just had
to be mine.

your love was so strong
so loving
so fresh
i loved it

Princess! Baby! My love!
Names I'll miss being called

"I love you."

Lies. It was all lies.

you were my drug
my legal drug
and i was so addicted

i let you go like
an idiot
now all I do is
suffer with regret

i made a mistake
forgive me...

i use to tell you
to write for me
whenever you
would overthink
now it's my turn
but you're gone...

Hurt. Pain. Torture.
Sufferage. Anger.

I will never
Forget you
My sun
My moon
And all of my stars

I couldn't imagine
seeing you with
someone else. But
it happened.
And now I'm dead.

The lines on my arms
are proof that I survived
but I don't think I can
this time.

Is there a chance?
For just one more shot?
I'll try my hardest.
I swear...

I suffer in silence
with a big
fake
smile
on my pale depressed face.

I TOLD YOU WE NEEDED A BREAK!
but you didn't listen.

Time. Time is what I needed.

All I need is you...
But do you need me?

I don't know what to do.

you probably
don't even care
about how im doing
while I'm here
crying over you
wondering if you're happy

i catch myself
zoning out sometimes
but my only thought is you

Help.

I need you now
more than ever.

I'm sorry. For the pain. The insults. The trouble. The mental torture. I was just never taught to love right. Everyone I ever loved has hurt me but i thought it was ok. Tough love. It doesn't exist. I'm sorry.