I feel empty inside,
And my emotions begining to slide.
I feel trapped in hurt and anger.
Out here all alone.
I never thought it would hurt so much,
To no longer have you by my side.
I had thought about it time and time again,
But it never seemed like I would die.
But now why does it feel this way.
As though my life has begun to sway.
As though my heart has no beat,
and the ground is no longer below my feet.
As though I am floating above the ground.
And hear nothing but rain pound.
I feel so lost and cold.
With no one here to hold.
So frightened and alone,
As though I have turned to stone.
I've cried so much that my eyes have no more tears,
Nothing can ever erase those years.
I will always have the fears.
I feel like it is all my fault.
And that no one can blame you.
I feel like I deserve it for what I put you through.
But at the same time, I'm not even sure.
I just wish it didn't have to end like this.
Can anyone get me out of the endless black pit.
Like the way you did when we first met.
You saved me from a life I was about to end.
And with you my heart thus mend.
Now so long later we have lost each other.
And I no longer feel as light as a feather.
Things are different now.
But, love is something that my heart with never howl.
At the begginging I thought this was what I really wanted.
But I look back now.
And I wonder..
Could I ever love someone as much as I do you.
Could I ever make up for the pain I caused.
The torment, the heart ache, the pain of lose.
Could I ever forgive myself for the things I have done to you.
When you never even deserved them to be done.
People can say what they want.
People can hate me if they please.
But as far as I am concerned the only people with the truth is you and me.
I love you with all my heart.
And I pray you will forgive me.
I understand why you did what you did.
But my heart is falling apart.
And I don't think it will ever be mended again...
