Dirty Little Secret

Chapter 18

He leads me into the bedroom, my legs still wrapped around his torso. His heels bump against the bed and he sat down on it, so I was straddling his lap. I kept inching closer to him, trying to diminish the space between our bodies. I move my hands down his long torso, feeling his firm abs. Thankfully, his shirt was already off, so it made my job easier. I could feel his cold hand creep up through the back of my shirt, unhooking my bra like he'd done it many times before. I push him until he's laying on his back and I'm laying on top of him.

He stopped kissing me real quick, his breathing was slightly heavy.

"What's wrong?" I ask.

"Um, nothing, I just..I.." His face flushed a bright red. I could tell he wasn't ready to move on, and I shouldn't be either. 

I quickly pull myself off of him and stand there awkwardly, looking at him as he pulls himself up. I couldn't help but feel slightly embarrassed of myself. I basically just got out of a "relationship", so to speak, and I'm already all over another guy. I wasn't even sure of my feelings for Liam. I mean, there was obviously something, but I don't know exactly what that was. He makes me feel like nothing else matters, that everything is so simple. I feel like I actually matter. Who am I kidding, he's gorgeous, sweet, and completely down to earth. Denying this is only making it worse.

"Sorry, I just, I want to do it, I just want it to be perfect and get to know you a little before. Then I feel like I'm not just doing it to do it, I'm doing it because I want to, you know?"

I knew exactly what he meant. I wish I would have been that smart and got to know Harry a little better. To be honest, I knew barely anything about him, except for the basic stuff he reveled to me that one night. It feels like it was so long ago, when in reality, it was only a couple of weeks.

"No, no, I completely understand. It's probably best if we didn't." I still couldn't shake the awkward feeling between us.

He gives me the puppy dog face, a sly smile starting to appear. "Come here, baby." He says to me as he throws his arms open, grabbing me and wrapping me into his warm body. His hands are placed on my cheeks as he caresses them slowly. He looks deep into my eyes, then plants a small kiss on my forehead.

"Don't think this changes the way I feel about you, Kat. I still absolutely adore you like I've always have since the day I laid my eyes on you." It was kind of cheesy, but I couldn't hide the stupid grin that appeared on my face. I didn't say anything, I just buried my head into his shoulder as we sat there with his arms still holding me tight, for what felt like hours.

We eventually stood up so Liam could make a late lunch before I left to go back to my dorm. I was really happy I'm going back to where all of my stuff is, but I really enjoyed alone time with Liam. It actually helped me clear my thoughts and emotions up, which I really needed. As he makes us grilled cheese, I went back into the spare room to pack up the few essentials I had. As I walked out of the room with my bag, Liam was just finishing up the sandwiches. He cut them into the little four squares and handed me my sandwich. 

We both took slightly long eating because I feel like neither one of us wants this time to end. It was around 4 o'clock now so I decided to head out. He picked up my bag and brought it to my car for me. I opened the car door but it was abruptly shut by Liam. His one arm was placed against the car while the other is placed on my cheek. His thumb rubs my cheek, ever so lightly, that causes electricity to flow through me. 

"When will I see you again?" His eyes searching my face for an answer.

"Well, I see you at school every day.."

"No, I mean actually see you, alone, like this."

"Soon, I promise." I say, placing a quick kiss that lingers on our lips.