I jogged up to the Mouchant Hill, it was an early hour of the morning. I took a deep breath, placing my both hands respectively on my knees. I saw the beautiful fire planet while rising and spreading its magnificent rays across the Valley. I was mesmerized by the scene, and as I stood up chilly breezes touched my face and I felt her presence.
"Aaron! You are different!" I turned around.
"Hazel?"
"Aaron you are the most beautiful thing ever happened to me." Her voice echoed. I knew she wasn't there but she was in me. She was in my mind and I couldn't help myself.
I turned around and the darkness by now was scattered and the beautiful pink purple sky emerges enlightening the way for the chubby little birds to fly.
I've been suffering from insomnia for past few days, her face, her smile, I couldn't help myself. "What's going on with me? What do I want?" I was so confused. There was something unexplainable, spiritual and phenomenal, something that I can't figure out and was urging me towards her.
Hours later, as I stumbled to the school and just by a jerk, felt something soft grabbing me by the elbow.
"Aaron, Look out!"
It was Hazel holding a tight grip of my elbow. A beautiful gregarious gorgeous creature that can fascinate anyone by her personality and me, I wasn't even able to distinguish what I have for her.
"Aaron?" her hands still on my elbow, so soft as if I never wished her to take them off.
"I... am sorry" I uttered.
"Sorry? Aaron? Are you alright?"
"Hazel? Umm.. We need to talk"
"Sure!"
We walked through the streets and after couples of minutes, she broke silence.
"Aaron? Why are you upset?"
"I.. don't know"
"C'mon please share with me!" She looked at me with her adorable eyes.
"I am confused. I don't know what is happening with me these days. I don't know what I want?"
"You are confused about me right? (She lowered her glance) I'm sorry. I love you Aaron but I shouldn't have declared it because somewhere I felt as if you love me back but I was wrong. I'm afraid that I'll lose my friendship too." She sniffed.
"Hey, hey, please don't cry"
"I'm not!" she tried to laugh hiding her tears.
And for the first time my instinct guided me and I held a tight grip of her soft hand. She looked up at me and there was a silence. I know myself, I was struggling hard from my emotions but all of those struggles were fainting as if the surrounding around me freezes and all I know was her. I wiped her tears moving quite close and grabbed her from her back, curled, lifted and hugged her tight.
"I love you", I finally uttered.
I felt her trying to hold me tight while resting her hands around me.
After few seconds, we moved slightly apart still lost in each other. Her face turning pink and a glowing blush on her face made me feel lively.
We strode silently and in the midst my phone rang. I excused to take a call and moved a distance. In that very instance I saw a car racing towards me as if its driver was drunk, as I lost my instincts, I felt someone pushing me aside and within a spark she sprang up through the car and fell back. Reckless driver didn't stop for a minute and rushed away.
"Hazel!" I cried as I moved briskly.
A beautiful young creature dipped in the river of blood flowing around her. I wasn't able to utter a word she was lying in a condition that can never be imagined or as if the whole world around me was fainting. Ambulance was late and she took her last breath.
"No, no, no, you can't leave me, wake up, wake up Hazel!" But she was lying motionless. I kept looking at her and she was still.
"Aaron?" I heard her voice although she was lying in an inactive state.
"Aaron?" I heard her again, but how could this be possible, I felt her soft hands curling my hair and then I woke up.
"Hazel? You okay?" I moved my hands to her face and then to her neck.
"Aaron? I'm fine. You were asleep during the whole lecture, Sir Steven just left and when I came to wake you up, I heard you crying. What's going.."
She was explaining the whole situation but I was looking all through her. And just before she could even complete I held her by her back and moved her closer and all of a sudden I finally touched her lips with mine, and this time I kissed her hard. I finally knew what I want. It was her, all I want is Hazel.
The realization of the fact that you really love something happens when you know what it could be when you've lost it. I realized that love is something more than spirituality; it is what your heart and mind agrees to.
