one shots

sparks | jian

in which jc watches as the love of his life gets completely taken away from him.

this is inspired by the song "sparks" by coldplay.

but as i watched the love of my life walk down the aisle towards his husband to be, i couldn't help but cry.

my heart is his. it's him that i hold onto. that's all i do. and not once had i let him down. but oh, the amount of times he had let me down.

i can not even count on both hands and both feet the amount.

the man spoke in loud, strong words. breaking my train of sad thoughts.

"and do you, kian lawley, take dominic deangelis to be your lawfully wedded husband?"

"i do"

kian was tearing up, making my sobs even harder to hold back.

i am supposed to be standing there, hand in hand, with kian. i am supposed to be marrying him. but due to fates absolute cruelness, i am not.

and all i can do is watch, helpless, as the love of my life gets completely taken away from me.

"and do you, dominic deangelis, take kian lawley to be your lawfully wedded husband?"

"i-i do"

"well! you may now kiss the groom"

as i watch kians lips smash into dominics, the memory of our first kiss appears into my mind like it had happened just five minutes before.

i replay the kiss between kian and i, that occurred 3 years ago, again and again just to evoke the happiness from that ancient moment.

i remember the first time my lips landed upon kians. i saw sparks

but i guess kian didn't.

in that moment, that kiss meant everything to me. it was the point in time where i began to fall in love him.

but i soon found out the kiss had not meant nearly as much to kian, as it did to me. oh, but how i can see that so clearly now as everyone cheers for the newly weds.

and it is before he is about to walk off with his now husband, dominic, that he turns to me with a wide smile. he looked the happiest he has ever been.

he scanned the rest of his groomsmen consisting of sam, ricky, connor, trevor, and corey.

they all cheered and yelled, "congrats" in unison. but me? i stood there with my shoulders rising and falling, trying to hold back my screams of agony.

i kept looking down at my feet, not bothering to look up again. for that was all i could do. i was certain that if i had looked up in the exact moment, i would fall to the ground.

"damn, jay. are you really that happy for me?! your fucking sobbing!"

it was then, when he talked to me, that i looked up. slowly.

a roar of laughter escaped from each of the grooms men's lips. i shook my head, right to left, repeatedly.

the guests voices suddenly fell silent. they were all now directly looking at me, including dominic, whispering questions.

with confused looks plastered upon all of their faces, sam spoke.

"w-what?"

kian looked me dead in the eye. he was searching for the answer behind my unhappiness. searching for the knowledge of this whole thing being a joke. but it wasn't. not at all.