Melancholy (punk zayn malik fanfiction)

Chapter 1

Lydias POV:

                            God i really could use some air right now besides I let my old roomate Daisy try me to the frat house , even though i knew she stays the night being penetrated by a different frat boy each night. I was by no means innocent but she really disgusted me at times , but she helped me through tough times when Justin cheated on me , he was my only friend  and she had only met me one day but she still comforted me when i would cry for what seemed like all day. She chose me over many people , her knowing her whole life.

  I really needed to get some air i need to clear my thoughts . "oww excuse" .... i began to say as i was pushed into the wall well pinned . Great i left the smoke infilled sex and marijuana smellign frat house to be smothered by a college kid who smelt of ass and the frat house. I was trying to push him off but he just seemed amused. So i just let him sit their makign out with me and revealing my red lace panties and pulling dress up high. But the more i refused the more worse things he did besides someone will get him off or maybe not. I could hear someones voice its sounded as they were screaming but i could not. They mut have been not that close because the voice sounded stil muffled by the annoying head throbbing music beaming from the frat . " I said get the fuck off you bastard!" i could not help but love sound of his beautiful british accent. Once i caught a glimpse of him i was confused i always heare bad things about the beautiful and mysterious boy and his group , but i try not to believe anything a drunk group of sluts tell me. " woah Zayn look we were just having fun " that nasty ass said and i kinda giggled at how worried he seemed. " Dont you even i will hurt you so bad" i hear him Zayn i think was his name yeah he is a popular topic of the sluts Daisy calls her "they help me get men friends" i think to myself rolling my eyes at Daisy even pretending she is not just as much as a whore. " look i will take you back to your dorm ? flat? if you want.. what all did he do? sorry ?" he says so quickly i can not even process the words before he is inches away from lips and i thought maybe this beautiful boy would kiss. " Or maybe we could hangout at my flat , love ?" he say tucking the strand of hair behind my face . " that would be nice." i say with a smile being place on my face as long as now blood red cheeks.

As we walked to his car i felt somewhat excited maybe i can have fun without going to stupid frat parties with Daisy, that is never fun. Also i was beyond embarrassed when zayn grabbed the hem of my dress pulling it down. I guess i forgot how exposed i was when Zayn said that to that guy.The drive was silent and of course i found my self thinking about Justin , " something bothering you,love" zayn said catching me off guard. He startled me making his hand raise far up my thigh. Fuck i must have been caught off guard really bad if i had not even noticed his hand on my thigh and him moving his thumb in small circular motions. I dont know but i felt happy instantly this is what i needed happiness. " okay then " he said removing his hand and wait why the fuck would i be sad of lost in conctact.

As i walked into the small flat of his the first thing i noticed was weed on the side table. "you smoke that?" i asked ." uhh every once in a while , does it smell bad because i have some candles?" i just ignored all of the things he said and asked another question and i know he knew what i was leading this too. " Is it addicting?". "Yeah but not as much as you think" he replied. And suprisingly he agreed and we  ended up getting high but i felt great i had adrenalline rush and it felt good i was confident and even took  the advantage that we are high to kiss him.It felt so good to laugh to feel in love wait i just met him stop Lydia you can't have feeling for him.

" hey umm my friend needs me right now so   i will drop you off at your flat , i had fun you know?" i knodded in agreement i did have fun he made me feel happy.

I was honestly kinda dissapointed that he was taking me home i wish i could have stayed god damn he probally wont acknowledge me ever again.

As Zayn walked me up to my flat  i caught him staring at me with his bottom lip pulled beneath his lips. I wanted to stare to get his attention let him know i saw i wanted to know if he like me as i well i might as well admit it i was fond of him alot and i want him to be fond of me.Though deep down i feel like i just want to get over with my breakup so badly that any attractive boy would make me feel happy and that i would think that they could make me feel happy and loved more than Justin ever did. " Hey thanks i really needed to have fun  and trust me i" i was cut off . His hands were on my hips and i was pressed against the door of my flat. I was suprised and even more frightened by him but in a good way the way he is looking deep into my eyes , his pupils fully dilated, his bottom lip pulled between his lips. He kissed my neck and i felt as if though i never wanted to leave this moment Justin never did this he did not give a shit about me , " Im just gonna break you" he said in almost a angrily tone but i could tell it was not towards me .

what the fuck just happend what did that mean god i cant process this all i thought as i stared at his beautiful feautures as he walked away and pulled his car out of the parking lot.

For some reason i felt relieved his said this because it meant he wanted me right oh well  i will figure out soon or atleast think about it all night.