What if I say something wrong?
I am, I always am.
What if I annoy you?
I am, I know I am.
Why can't I be normal?
Why can't I just say things?
Why can't I be affectionate?
You probably think
that I'm just
listening
to you
but not hearing a thing
except for when you
compliment me.
What if you think I'm vain?
And can only take
and never give?
There's something wrong with me,
I want to be fixed,
but there's nothing I can do.
I'm trying, I promise.
What the fuck is wrong with me?
What a pathetic defective human!
What if she doesn't really like you?
But I know she does...
How would you know?
She says she loves me
What if she's lying?
There are people who would kill
to mess with your head.
But I trust her
You want to
I do
How can you trust anyone?
I feel so selfish
because I can't be
the way I want to.
I can't be how everyone else is.
And I feel bad.
I feel bad for being this way.
I feel bad for feeling this way.
I should stop complaining,
there are people who have it worse.
Why do I want to cry so badly
all the time?
Stop
Stop
Stop
STOP
