Hello :)
well firstt off i know idont have a lot of fans at the moment but to be honest my life hasnt exactlyy been easy past few months so i havnt really been writing :/
Anyways i have had a knew idea for a story that i really want to get popular, soo iff youu dontt mindd please just vote, comment and tell people about my story because i really really want thiss.
Okay so back to the story partt. Well the idea isnt solid yet but i was just thinking when this like break up/ make up scence thingy poped up in my head and i was like i need to write thiss down before i forget. so thats what i did. You dont really get much from the little part i'm about to post but please let me know if i should carry on posting as im going to carry on writing it but if you dont appriciate it then i wontt postt it :/
anywayss enoguh blabbing from me and here youu goo....
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I never thought for one minuet that I would be stood outside in the pouring rain in the freezing weather called winter late on a Friday night having an argument with someone I cared for so much. But, then again half the things that I thought would never happen always seem to find a way to.
I peered at the person I have tried so hard to forget through wet eyelashes with small drops of water falling from my lashes onto my cheeks. There he was, drenched in water, just like me, his clothes sticking to his body staring right at me in confusion and with hurt, pain and love in his eyes.
"What have I done Lex?" he shouted from the down the street, throwing his arms up in wonder. "Just please tell me Lex because I have no idea and it's killing me!"
I felt his pain, I really did. He hadn't done anything wrong and I knew it was unfair to punish him but there was no other way. The more I was around him the more the more I wanted. My heart craved for him. But the more I was around him I kept falling more in love and there was nothing I could do about it. There was just something about him that put me on a high when were together but the higher you are, the harder you fall and that's what was happening. I was falling for him fast and hard and I knew it but that wasn't the part that scared me. The part that scared me was having no one to catch me.
"You haven't done anything okay!? I just, I just can't be around you anymore." My voice was clear and could be heard from down the street. I was thankful for the rain as my tears blended in as just another few rain droplets on my face.
I could see I wasn't making any sense to him but I just couldn't tell him the truth. I know I should give him a good reason for being like this but it was killing me as well. I was in pain knowing I was hurting him.
"What do you mean? I can't stay away from you Lex, I love you and I want to be with you!" I winced when I heard him now. His voice was sad and chocked and I felt as if I was the one slowing cutting off his air. It was clear that he wasn't letting me go easily. I didn't know what to do, how do I tell him?
"Don't you see!? That's why we can't be together, it's easier if we get of this now then no one gets hurt!" I knew my words would hurt him and I swear that wasn't my intension.
"Are you serious?" he questioned in disbelief but didn't give me time to answer as he carried on. "Just listen to yourself! Do you know how stupid that sounds? Huh? Is it so bad having me love you Lex?" His voice pierced through the quiet on the street. I watched as his face boiled with anger as he marched down the road stopping a few feet away from me.
"No! No! of course not! How can you even think that?" my voice was softer, how could he doubt my love for him? It stung.
"I'm not even sure what to think anymore because of you! You've turned my world upside down, I'm feeling things I've never felt before, I can't get you out my head, I---I don't know what to do and then you turn around and say this! I just don't know what to do anymore."
I turned my face away from him not being brave enough to meet his intense gaze. I could sense him looking at me, waiting for me to say something but I didn't. We stayed silent for another minuet before he finally broke the silence.
"Just tell me why your avoiding me, please." his whispered plea was painful to listen to.
I looked up to his face but I still never looked into his eyes knowing I would just end up breaking down in front of him.
Instead I told a lie. I needed to have a reason to rethink just for a second so I could make my escape. "It's not right for us to be together, you're my brothers best friend and were from different crowds at school, you should be-"
"Don't lie to me!" he roared cutting me off.
I was startled by his outburst so I made the mistake off looking into his eyes. I felt my eyes fill up with moisture, He looked utterly confused, his face was red with anger whilst his eyes were tortured with his pain. His eyebrows were dented inwards, frowning and his mouth was in a tight line.
I was right when I said that if I looked into his eyes I would break down, because, that is what I did. I broke down whilst spilling the truth.
"You want to know the real reason!? Fine! The real reason I'm avoiding you is because I'm scared! I'm scared of what I'm feeling. Each day I'm with you I end up loving you a little bit more than the day before but no matter how much I love you one day I will still always love you more the next. That is why I'm avoiding you! I'm terrified of falling for you so hard that when I land I'm going to be to hurt to get back up. Because one day you might not be there to break my fall! You might leave me and then who will catch me huh?"
Tears were now freely flooding down my face now. I couldn't see clearly as tears clouded my vision. I raised my head when I noticed how he hadn't said anything. Through the blinds my tears made I couldn't see clearly but I could see how he couldn't meet my gaze.
Rejection washed through me and my salty tears came faster now. I shook my head slightly mumbling a quick sorry before turning on my heels and running away. I could hear him muttering a few curses before he too started running. I knew I had no chance of out running him but I wasn't going to give up. I pushed myself harder and tried to gain more speed.
I was pulled to a halt when he grabbed my wrist making me jerk to a stop. He spun me around so I was facing him but I would look at him. It hurt to much.
"I will always catch you." those five words made my breath hitch. He said he would catch me!
He caressed the back of my hand with his thumb whilst his other hand gentle grabbed my chin and tilted my head up so I was staring into his eyes. When I was staring at him he smiled slightly and removed his hand only to lace his fingers through mine and lift them up and look and them. I turned my head and looked at our joined hands.
"I have hold of your hand Lex and I'm never going to let go." I smiled at the words.
With my other hand that he wasn't holding I grabbed his free hand and also laced my fingers with his. I gazed into his eyes as I replied with "As do I."
Smiling brightly he leaned in towards me and I followed his lead. Our lips were now slightly brushing as I whispered "I love you."
"I love you too."
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Thatss all i gott soo far but i have an idea of what will happen so please, please vote and comment really would appriciate itt :) xxx
