"Are you really going to break up with me?" I said while tears keep running
"You know, Gillian we are still going to be together if we are really destined and if we are meant for each other, I don't really want this, you and I have different responsibilities that we have to do in our lives and we need to achieve our goals first, so stop crying and if I am not worthy of your love, someone is going to be worthy of it, your love your sacrifices and your efforts,thank you for everything Gillian, goodbye." He said while he's wiping off my tears
I held his wrist, I am going to miss his gentle,white skin "so this relationship didn't work for you huh, AM I NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR YOU?!" I screamed, I wanted to show how it really hurts, because he really affect me that much
"I wanted to end this,Gillian because It's not working anymore, please understand my situation" he smiled a little "goodbye" he removed my hand from his wrist and then he ran, he ran away from me, he didn't want my love, am I not pretty enough, am I not curvy enough, am I not mature enough, am I not intelligent enough Min Yoongi? Do I need to change myself just for you to come back again in my arms?
You really know how to make me cry huh Suga, memories are still fresh and you know what, I don't want to remember you, remembering you is such a torture for me, because all I can remember is our happiest moments and remembering them reminds me of the pain when I heard what I feared the most, when you said goodbye.
I'm here alone in the park, such a stupid thing to do right, I don't know if I could still control my insanity, remembering him makes me insane. I took out my sketchpad and decided to draw him, every line, every shade, reassembles his features, I teared and crumpled that piece of paper and I let the wind blow it's pieces, I want that piece of paper to be blown away, all the memories, even the slightest one, I want to forget you Min Yoongi, please, I don't want to see you again. I'm tired of crying, I hate this kind of feeling, the feeling of being lonely even though this world is composed of many people.
"What can I do for you ma'am" a girl wearing a dark blue uniform asked "ma'am do you want to have a haircut? Or do you want to curl your hair? or maybe you want to have other kinds of hairstyles" I wanted to have a hot oil treatment but I think I already need a haircut "I'm going to have my haircut"
After I had my haircut, I went to pay at the counter, I saw someone beside me, a man wearing a round glasses, wearing a cap, he paired his Black V-neck t-shirt with jeans and blue Nike rubber shoes. I was shocked when his addicting manly scent filled my nose
"Ugh, excuse me miss, do you know where is the nearest bookstore here?" His expressive eyes showed his confusion.