You know when you have that feeling where u just wanna take a razor or a knife and put cuts all over your wrist and every single part of your body. You just want to kill yourself not knowing what to do and just get rid of everything. When you just want to say goodbye to all your loved ones and go on in your journey just alone forever. Never looking back in the past and just walk towards the heaven. Well that feeling is here. Not because of my present but my past as well. You will never believe me if i tell you my story. But just to let it out, here it is. I can see and feel spirits. And you know what, they are after me. They just wanna kill me again. Few years ago they tortured me and i ended up in a deep depression state. Well i cut off with all my friends and I don't know why i just wanted to come out. Those spirits made me do stuff to myself and i did it.. I obeyed them. I started to cut my wrists and hit myself deliberately. I was crying outside in the pouring rain. It was my grandfather's birthday and i could see him in the staircase. He touched me, told me to stay calm and to pray, to ignore the spirits and they won't do anything, he won't let them touch me ever. So i did. I ignored and learnt to change myself. I was Okay until today i felt them again. Without a second thought, i had a compass in my hand ready to cut it. I have those old scars newly framed back on my wrists. But i need help to get away with it. Help me!
