The girl, The blade, and The boy

It started with a small scratch right under your calve. You did not want to do it on your wrist. That was to obvious. It was the beginning of fall so everyone was wearing long sleeves no one would notice if you did anyway. But then, everything started getting worse. Building up inside screaming to get out. everyday you would come home put your key in the lock and yell to see if anyone is home you know there's no one home but you yell anyway. no answer. you sit down and start to cry because you are trying to stay strong. you are failing. you hear that cold lifeless piece of metal calling you from its hiding place "use me no one will notice it's just one little cut its just one" you try to resist and not give in. you fail. you go to that secret place your 'little friend' hides and pull it out. the pain. the self hatred. the break down. all the meals you have skipped. all the names you have been called. suddenly become nothing as the thick crimson liquid runs down your arms. staining the floor. dripping down and sputtering. all the cuts. all the saying you will be stronger next time, it's gone. you see why people did it on the wrist. It hurt more. its funny how stubbing your toe and getting a paper cut can feel like the worst pain ever, yet you can take a lifeless piece of metal to your skin and feel nothing at all. you hear the door closed your brother and little sister home you hurry to the bathroom and clean your arms you put the blade back and go out to meet them your brother says "hi" and goes to his room but your little sister sees a bit of blood on your arm "what happened? you're bleeding" she says "oh I just fell that's all" you reply feeling a little bit of guilt, you didn't want to tell her the truth she was so young and so innocent. the next day was quite cold perfect for the sweaters. you packed your stuff and left for school dreading the day, you finally get to go home. you put your key in the lock asking if anyone is home. knowing no one was. all of a sudden you are crushed by your brothers arms pulling you into a tight hug. you try to fight it but give up collapsing in his arms you start to cry "I'm sorry" he says "for what?" his eyes are starting to fill with tears "I'm sorry for everything. I didn't know. I wanted to be there for you. if you would have told me I would have helped you. I didn't want you to end up like this.... to end up like me.." he explains. tears starting to fill his eyes. he pulls up the sleeves to reveal scars. Not new. but old. old scars from same thing he did many years ago he hugs you once more as you collapse on the floor. he pulls up your blood stain sleeves to find the marks of your pain "I wanted to help you" he says once more. "I was looking for something in your room and I found your Crimson covered razor." the days go by and you haven't done it. sure only one here and there but you are getting better the cute boy you had LIKED asked you out. of course you said yes. it was a cold night outside and It was by the river. you guys were kissing. He runs his hand up your arm. "y- you like to draw..  don't you? A touch of sadness in his voice. you look down in shame as he puts his finger under your chin. Rasing your head and kisses you ever so gently. he got down and pulled up your sleeves and kisses your arm and scars "you're still the most beautiful girl ever. nothing from the past, or anything you ever did will make me think youre ugly. I still think you're beautiful and I don't ever want to lose my best friend. I love you" that night he showed you he also like to draw. many dates went by and every night he told you how beautiful you were. But, one night he was acting strange. you asked what was wrong but he didn't reply. instead he pulled you close, your face mere centimeters away from his, he kissed you like he had never kissed you before. he grabs your hand and asked "will you be mine? forever?" you smile, barely able to speak "y-yes of course" you barely managed to get out. he slid a ring on your finger. "I don't want this to change I want you to be mine forever" he said grabbing your waist "don't worry love, I'm only yours" you said, your eyes glowing with love and true sense of happiness you hadn't felt in many years