Why can't i be loved ? ( lessbian thug love Story)

Latoya p.o.v

My name is Latoya King , im 17 & in a abusive relationship . I never knew my parents they gave me away at the age of 1 . My girlfriend name is Leah , (yes i said girlfriend) we've been in a relationship for 2 years , at first things started off perfect , til the abuse came in & things went down hill .

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Leah is the true definition of a bad bitch. She was like a goddess. Every female and Nigga wanted her.

Who could blame them though?

I was lucky to get her. Even though I know I deserved better, Leah made me feel like I HAD to have her. She was always telling me about how I'm nothing and never will be nothing unless I have her.

And my dumb self believes her.

But Leah was not always like this.

She was caring, lovable, and just everything I could ever imagine. She was .. perfect.

Too perfect.

When she hit me the first time, I thought nothing of it. Just an accident.

But it continued.

I try to fight back, but I'm small as hell. Leah is bigger than me.

I'm stuck. There's no way out.

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" Get yo ass up and do something. I'm tired of seein yo face" Leah yelled when she walked into the bedroom and saw me sitting.

This is basically what I hear everyday.

" I'm studying " I say, looking up at her.

She was high.

" Leah your high " I said, standing up and getting my bag.

" So.? And where you goin? "

" To the library. I don't wanna be here while you're high Leah " I said, putting my books in my bag.

" The hell you ain't! You gone stay right here. I don't need you out, creepin "

I looked at her.

" What you mean? " i asked.

" It mean what I said. You aint finna be goin out to see no otha bitch "

" you're not my mom " I say ..

It pissed her off. I shouldn't have said that, specially since she's high.

" what the hell did you just say Toya ?" She said through gritted teeth .

" i said that you ain't my mom" i mumbled while shaking

. I knew i was getting myself into awhole bunch of shit . Her once hazel eyes turned red as she clenched her fist and walked towards me .

" i may not be your mom , but i OWN you , so whatever i say goes , understood ?" She asked . I was so afraid to answer so i just starred at her .

" Latoya Bernaae King , do you not fucking hear me " by this time she was squeezing my neck she had a tight grip on my neck & hot tears streamed down my face , as i was lost for words.

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" I guess ima have to teach yo ass a lesson" she said, pushing me to the floor and taking off her spiked belt.

Was she serious right now?

Was she seriously about to whip me?

" I'm sorry " I managed to choke out.