In Konoha Book 1: My Happy Place

Chapter 3

hey guyz! If u rlly are there.... PLZ COMMENT IM GETTING LONELY I FEEL LIKE NOONE IS READING TT^TT. Plzz i beg you! HITOMI BEGS U TOO!

Hitomi: Uhm..... Me? Begging?

Me: I AM UR CREATOR DO AS I SAY!

Hitomi: HAHAHAHHAHA UNICORNS

Me: OMGWTFBBQ

ANYWAY. On with the story!

I do not own  starbucks...... or naruto.

Hitomi's Pov

Okay, so I waved "Hi" to the two stalkers in the bush. I'M NOT INSANE! Well, fine. Maybe a little, BUT STILL! I thought I told you guys I did silly things when I'm awkward. You should be use to it by now. And you call me weird!

I realised the sun was finally up. Wow, I was gone for that long? Ergh. And I flew to the academy. Not literally, but that would be cool! 

Oh, and about that weird flame from before.... Well... I'll go into further detail later, when I'll probably have to tell you guys or all of you will be all like,"WTF IS THAT?!" 

So yeah, puttng that aside. My stomach growle loudly. I mean REALLY loudly. It was like a dinosaur rawring at another dinosaur that stole its chocolate. Yes, really loudly.

Thats when i realized. I WAS DEAD! No, just kidding. Hehehehehhehe. I realized that I didn't eat any thing since breakfast from yesterday. So being a NORMAL PERSON. Yes even I can be normal sometimes. I took out some money and hunted for an open shop.

OOH! AN OPEN SHOP! I spotted one and walked towards it. My stomach growled even louder (A/N: Is that even possible? O__O) as I smelled something sweet coming from the shop. I walked closer and closer.

I was about a yard away when the shop keeper saw me. She froze and her customer asked her why. The shop keeper pointed at me. The customer looked at me paled and turned back to the shop keeper. They whispered frantically.

"You see that girl?"

"No way, is she?"

"Yea, did you hear about what happened?"

"Yup. But what was wrong with her?"

"I heard that...."

I walked away before I could hear what the shop keeper thought had happened to me. I was tired of these rumors. Being called Monster, Demon, Experiment, devil, beast, they were all the same. I didn't care anymore. I think. 

I felt a pain in my chest. They were afraid of me, but what happened wasn't my fault.  I didn't choose this appearance! Why does everybody isolate me? What is this feeling. I'm not needed by anyone. If I died nobody would care. Unwanted, forsaken, rejected, abandoned, I had so many words that described me, but what was this feeling.

I felt something nudge me in the leg. Waking me up from my deep thoughts. It was a white dog nudging at me whining. I picked it up and petted it. Did he feel the same way I am? Was he too abandoned? Did he feel rejected? I continued petting it, and his whining stopped, he looked as if he were smiling. Oh, he was just feeling lonely. I smiled, at least he's happy now.

"Akamaru!" I heard a voice yell. The dog jumped out of my arms and barked happily to the caller. It was Kiba. Oh, so the dog was Akamaru. Makes sense. Kiba looked at me. His face paled. He grabbed Akamaru and walked quickly away.

So he knew of that rumor too, one of the rare true rumors of me. Never talk to me alone, or with a distant look on my face. Those are the times where I'm dangerous. I have this split personality thing. Around a lot of people I have this personality thats all like happy, carefree, oh look theres a bunny! But alone, my dark thoughts take over, so if you are going to interrupt me, at least due it in a large group. My mind was also like this. Whoever infiltrates it will see meadows, rainbows, unicorns, even Nyan Cat. Thats only the outer layer of my mind. The inner layer of my mind is... well lets just say you'll be shocked at what you see.

I watched Akamaru bark happily at Kiba. Before he seemed so abandoned and lonely, now he's happy.

Then it struck me.

The feeling.

Loneliness.

My chest felt like it was a hollow shell when I realized it. All along. This horrible feeling. It was loneliness? I didn't think loneliness was this awful. They just said, its when you feel sad because someone isn't their, no biggie. But it was more than that. It felt like hopelessness, grief, sadness, and abandonment. It felt like there is NO ONE. Everyone hates you. No matter how hard I tried to change myself, I couldn't, because no one would care if I did or not. No one would even listen to me. I am not needed, just extra. If I die, no one would mourn. No one would even look. It didn't matter to them, for it was me, and I'm not important. I was an ant in a world of humans. So what if I'm stepped on? Doesn't matter.

My head erupted with pain. NO! I WILL NOT THINK LIKE THIS! I clutched my temples and forced my dark mind into a little box. I closed the box and locked it. The box was in my mind of course. I felt the pain leave my head, but the hollowness in my heart remained. I knew this couldn't simply be locked away into the darkest corner of my mind so I let it be.

Okay Hitomi! Positive thoughts!

Things can only get better! Yea! Ooh! And look! Breakfast! I saw the same apple tree and ate a couple of apples because apples were cool like that. 

I walked to the academy passed the test and got my head protector. Nothing important happened, excepting the fact that I got a violet colored one! It was one of my favorite colors! It matched my eye! I guess it was actually a really good day! 

Man, that is a BIG FAT LIE!!!!!!

There you go! Hitomi is lonely :( I'm lonely too so COMMENT! I DONTCARE ABOUT VOTES! I JUST WANT TO KNOW PPL ARE ACTUALLY READING TT^TT