Holding onto two (twenty one pilots fan fiction)

Chapter 9

Trigger warning!!!!! If you are sensitive to self harm then either don't read this chapter or read it with caution. Stay alive frens |-/

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Tyler's P•O•V

I hung up the phone and put it down on the counter next to me. I stared at my duplicate in the mirror. His eyes swollen and bloodshot... just like mine. The blade was just sitting next to the sink - calling my name. Blurryface convinced me. Blurryface knew my weaknesses and used them against me.
I picked up the blade and rolled up my sleeve.
'Just one or two won't hurt.' I thought to myself.
The blood trickled effortlessly down my wrist; it looked so at home. I didn't love the feeling - I just liked how once I had done it, I felt like all my demons were let out - not for long though. I closed my eyes and sobbed to myself for hours.
'I'm not man enough for Harley. I nearly got her killed. I'm an idiot.' I thought; the words rolled around my mind, beating my skull.

The next morning I woke up with a small scar half way up my arm. When I saw it I let out a huge sigh. I checked the clock and it was already 11:30am. I couldn't believe I had slept most of the day away. It must be at least 1 in the morning over in Anaheim... should I call her? I grabbed my phone and opened up the FaceTime app. For 5 minutes I argued with my thumb whether or not I will click her name. Finally my finger slipped and the signal was being sent over the sea to my beautiful wife. Surprisingly she answered quite quickly.
"Sorry for waking you up." I mumbled nervously.
"It's fine. I'm at Louise and Josh's place." I saw her get out of bed and head to the kitchen.
"Oh okay, how's Louise?" I asked.
"She's good. Are you okay? You seem a bit... off." She pointed out. Had she seen the scar? Does she just know?
"I'm fine." I said lies clear in my voice.
"Tyler." She said with raised eyebrows.
"It's hard." I whispered, holding back tears.
"One more day bubba."
"Not just being here without you. My head!" I cried.
"Ty it's okay. I know how you feel. You're gonna get through this. I'll see you Sunday morning and I'll help you."
"Our brains are sick." I sobbed with a half grin.
"And that's okay." She replied with a sad smile.
"I really needed that." I smiled.
"I know. I love you and I miss you."
"I love you too and I miss you more." She hung up and I guess went back to bed. I had a shower and got ready for the day; it was gonna be a long one.

Harley's P•O•V

After that conversation with Tyler I knew it was a lot more than in his head. I made a giant cup of coffee and opened my laptop. I looked up tickets to London tonight. There is a plane leaving at 4am. I can make it. I bought two tickets; one for me and one for Louise - she'll want to see Josh and I'm sure Josh wants to see her too.
"Louise." I whispered rocking her back and forth.
"Mmm." She groaned.
"Get up quick it's an emergency." She shot up looking alarmed.
"What's the emergency?"
"Pack a bag for 2 nights in London!" I squealed.
"Wait what?"
"Tyler seems really offish and I'm worried about him so I payed for us to have a weekend in London with our boys." I smiled.
"That's amazing. Not the bit about Tyler but seeing our boys." She quickly threw some clothes and stuff into a bag and we headed to my apartment. I packed some random bits along with some cute outfits and we headed for the airport.
We made the flight just in time.

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Poor Tyler. I'm sorry if this chapter upset you. Harley is surprise visiting them! Love all of you! Hope you enjoyed the chapter.
-Jess