Over and Over Again [S.G//Z.M]

[9]

Better by Chris Brown ft Tyga
Z A Y N

It's been a whole week! A whole fucking week since me and Selena sort of talked and when I tell I miss my princess so much I really do. Like Gigi is fun and all, but I never really noticed how desperate she is, how badly she always needs attention. As opposed to Selena who shine like a diamond, she never liked my possessiveness. She was her own person when we we're together, even though I'll get jealous over the most stupidest thing ever she was still my princess and I let her go. A whole month ago I let the most perfect girl go because I was selfish and inconsiderate to her feelings, not realizing that I was going to regret this mistake forever.

Currently Selena was always with this guy name Nick, the guy she met by bumping into him when she first caught me and Gigi fucking. They've been extremely close to each other, which causes a discomfort to form in my stomach as I think of her in his arms.

I had called Harry over to my dorm, to just talk and he still hasn't come yet. I don't understand how he just takes Selena's side in all this! I mean I was an asshole, but it's bros before hoes, although Selena's not a hoe. I just miss Harry, he was always good company. He's my best friend no matter what.

Liam was gone all morning, so I was able to smoke my blunt in peace without passing it around. I usually smoke cigarettes, but weed is also good. I feel as it calms me better than those cancer sticks anyways. There was a soft knock on my door.

"Come in." I shout as I take another hit. The window was open to allow the smell to disintegrate. Before my R.A smelt it.

The door opened and I smiled when I saw Harry's mop of curls covering his face as he smiled back at me showing off his adorable dimples. I was always jealous of him for having the cute button face, but then I grew up and learned to appreciate my godly looks.

"Hey man." I handed him the half blunt and he gladly took it, taking a couple pulls before handing it back.

"Sup." He sat at my computer desk as I was on my bed sprawled out.

Harry starts to roll another blunt while I finish the first one. "I miss her Harry." I sighed heavily. I turned to see his reaction, although my vision was kind of blurry it was evident that a frown has taken over his features.

He stopped rolling and stares at me. "Dude, you really hurt her. I don't think she'll just jump back into your arms. Plus you're still with Gigi." He states the facts.

I sat up and stared at him. "I still love her." I grabbed my pillow and took out pictures of us. My favorite one was when we were going out, she was all dolled up in her sexy makeup. Her hair was curly and so bouncy. While I looked plan, with my black/blonde hair at the time, my beard grew and I looked like a grown man. But Selena took the picture anyway because she loved the moments we had between us. (AN//The first pic 😍)

"I know man." He said as he finished rolling the blunt and lighting it. Taking a couple pulls before passing it towards me.

I kindly denied as I just stared at me and Selena's pictures. He didn't seem to mind as he continued to smoke the weed. "Do you think if I separate from Gigi and take a break from other girls that she'll consider giving me a chance?" I questioned and Harry shrugged, while I sighed sadly.

"Maybe she will, but I don't know how Selena thinks." He said as he pulls another drag. He seems to be stressed out about something and here I am being selfish talking about my problems.

"What's wrong hazza?" I question looking at a picture of me and Selena.

It was of us, obviously, but this was my favorite picture. She was leaving a kiss on my cheek, while caressing my stubble jaw, while my arm was wrapped around her tightly with our eyes closed. She looked so perfect in this picture, there's no way I was letting her get with that numb of a guy. I'll do anything in my power to get her back.

"Zayn!" Harry yells but then giggles out.

I smile softly and look up at him. "Yeah?" I was so lost in the pictures of me and Selena that I definitely didn't care with what was happening around me.

"I'm gay." He mumbled with a smile. I just stared at him as if he was stupid. Not because he was gay, but because he didn't think I knew this information already. Of course I knew my best friend was gay, him and that blonde fellow will walk around campus holding hands, they would sneak kisses upon the others cheek when no ones looking. I mean seriously how can you not notice.

"Don't hate me. I'm still your friend you met in primary school." He frowned.

I got up and sat on his lap giving him a reassuring hug. "I don't hate you, but don't get any ideas of me and you. Not happening." I said seriously causing the both of us to laugh together.

He hugged back, and I could feel a smile on his face. "Thank you for not judging me." He mumbled into my neck and I nodded getting off of him. We finished the rest of the joint together and just started remembering funny moments we had together when we were younger.

"Remember when Shane dared you to run down our block naked and you were so scared to do it, unless I did it with you." We laughed and enjoyed each other's company.

"Yeah, or remember the time when we went to our first high school party and Perrie kept grinding on you, so she can fuck you but you didn't want to lose your virginity to her. Instead she pulled you upstairs and gave you the worst blowjob ever." Harry was in a fits of giggles, rolling on the floor. As he was talking about my ex girlfriend Perrie, she made me feel so uncomfortable in my skin freshman year after she did in fact give the worst head ever. It was a total shame. She's doing god knows what, but as long as she's out of my life I'm good.

As I laid in bed I kept thinking about Selena. I picked up another picture and smiled.

"Help me get her back Haz." I whisper softly feeling my eyes burn, as I was about to cry. I haven't cried so much in years, so if Selena's distance from me is making me cry I know now that I truly fucked up.

"You'll get her back, trust me in due time." He sighed sadly.

I just continued to look at all of our moments. She was perfect. She was perfectly fine without me but I didn't want to let her go. "She's so better without me Haz, but I'm scared to let her go." I started to cry and that was different because I don't cry. Selena's changed me and I completely fucked yo the best thing that ever happened to me. I fucked up, but I'm going to make everything better.

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Updated! Woo-hoo. I'm going to surprise you next chapter, that will either have you hate me or love me. Either or. Took the idea from a fellow reader...

I had to take out one of the pictures since I had to many http links. But I'll just described the pic for those who didn't read the chapter 🙃

I hoped you enjoyed the chapter the song. Just the emotion that zayn is feeling. Omg so I went on google n typed in 'zaylena' when I tell you my heart jumped out of my chest! I mean I know it not real, but shoot ppl got me feening for the couple to be real. I fucking love it!!!!!! 😍😍

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