Dirty Little Secret

Chapter 20

My alarm clock starts going off and I slowly wake up and look at the time. 5:30. I must have woken up early to make sure Liam gets ready okay. I look over at him to see if he's awake, but he's still sound asleep. He's so adorable when he sleeps. I get up to take a shower once I realized I had been staring at a sleeping man with a gigantic smile across my face. I walk over to the bathroom and just as I get in, I realize the only piece of clothing I have with me is the outfit I wore to dinner last night, shit. 

I try to take a quick shower, which ended up not being the case because when I got out, Liam was already in the kitchen making us breakfast. I wrap my hair in a towel and grab one to wrap around my body before I walk out of the bathroom. 

"Do you need some clothes?" He asks me as soon as I walked out.

I felt a little embarrassed, but smiled and said, "Yeah."

"I laid a clean tshirt, some sweatpants, and a pair of boxers if you want to wear those." He says as he points towards his room.

I walked into the room to find the clothes all laid out across the bed. I quickly close the door and dress myself. I felt like I looked like a boy, but I was actually really comfortable. Luckily I wore my toms to dinner so I didn't look like a complete fool. I walked back into the kitchen and there's a plate of pancakes with some whipped creme and strawberries on top that Liam had left for me to eat while he takes a shower. I can't help but smile as I sit down to eat my breakfast. 

I quickly bandage Liam up, his knuckles were still a little bloody. However, his eye swelling had decreased dramatically, but he had a noticeable black eye. I tried to cover it up with some of my makeup, but he was being difficult, so I just gave up. We finally leave to go to campus.

Once I arrive, I make direct eye contact with Harry and he begins to walk towards me. I tell Liam I'll meet him after school and I head towards Harry, as well. He smiles and greets me, then offers to walk me to class. I could get use to friendly Harry. 

After school, I went to go find Liam so he could take me back to my dorm room. When I got in the room, I found a note sitting on my desk. 

*Went out to dinner with Niall. I know I shouldn't have but I couldn't help myself. Love you, Maddie x*

I was a little depressed about being alone because I've spent the past few days with Liam, but I really needed alone time, so this was good. I began to catch up on my homework for the week. I didn't really like being behind, and it was nice knowing I was ahead. After about an hour in, there was a knock on the door. Was Maddie home already? I stand up and pad over towards the door when the person knocks again, a little softer. I slowly opened the door to find Harry standing at the door with a look of despair covering his face. 

"Why are you here?" I quietly ask, trying not to make eye contact with him.

"I just wanted to, uh, hang out, you know, like friends do..is that alright?" I can tell he's nervous because he started rubbing the back of his neck. 

"Uh, yeah..sure..I was just, working on homework." I move aside so he can walk in my dorm room.

He walks in and plops himself on my bed and picks up my school work. "This isn't even due for another week!" He looks at me and laughs.

I rush over and grab it from his hands. "I just like to be ahead, that's all!" He just kept laughing.

He picks up all of my papers and gathers them into a pile before he throws them on the floor to lean back on my bed. He grabs the remote and starts searching through the channels on my tv. 

"Wow, your cable sucks, this is why I own my own place."

"Well you're a junior, of course you don't stay in a dorm. Plus, you actually have a good paying job." I remembered, I should probably get a job.

"Yeah, true..you would be fun to live with." His tone got very serious and he mumbled the words as he looked away from me.

I couldn't help but be curious as to why he decided to say that. "How so?"

"I don't know, just your personality seems fun.." I could tell he was getting flustered. 

"Oh." I turned my head to try and hide my smile, but he ended up seeing and smiled back.

I took a seat on the end of the bed by his feet and watched tv with him, he put on Friends. We just lay there, laughing historically. It was the episode where Ross shows everyone his songs he wrote with his keyboard.

"When I was little, I always wanted to learn the keyboard." Harry says.

"Didn't you have a little play one?"

"Yeah, but I wanted to play a real one. I always tried, but learning how to play instruments was never really one of my better talents."

"Oh really? Then what are your 'better' talents?" He looks like a boxer, since his upper body is practically covered in tattoos. Maybe the guitar? He does look like one of those sexy, rock guitarist.

"I like to sing." I was a little shocked by his answer. 

"Are you serious?"

"Yeah, I know, I don't really seem like the singing type..I've even wrote a few songs myself."

"Can I hear one maybe?"

He scoffs. "Yeah, lemme think....okay." He clears his throat and starts banging his hands on the nightstand to create a beat. "Now you were standing there right in front of me. I hold on it's getting harder to breathe. All of a sudden these lights are blinding me. I never noticed how bright they would be." 

"Wow..that was..amazing." I couldn't stop looking at him. It's like his voice had put me under a spell in now I'm in a trance of Harry. His voice was so raspy and hot..it brought back those feelings for him I've been trying so hard to push away.

He smiles. "You're amazing."

"Harry, I.."

"Shhhh.." He inches closer towards me and I look up at him as he pushes a strand of my hair behind my ear. He caresses my cheek and runs his thumb over it. The electricity fuels through me. Oh how I've missed his touch.

"You're beautiful, Kat." He whispers. My face flushes and I look away from his strong gaze.

He slowly turns my head to face him and stares me directly in the eye. He moves in close until our lips are almost touching. Before I can acknowledge my own actions, my lips are crashing into his. I pull away as soon as I realize what I was doing.

"I'm sorry...I think you should go." I quickly stand up and start pacing around the room, extremely flustered. He stands up and starts walking over towards me, but I shoot him a look and he stops.

"Kat, I'm really sorry...I just...I.." He seemed to be fumbling with his words and he did that thing again where he rubs his hand on the back of his neck. He had a worried look on his face as he paced back and fourth between the door and my bed.

"You need to go." My words came out forced as I swallowed the tears trying to come up.

He stood there for a minute then finally left my dorm room. I sat down on my bed to try and calm down to figure out the past events. Not long after, Maddie came home and I tried to cover up the fact that I've been crying. I wasn't sure why I was crying. I liked Liam, I knew that, but I was so confused why Harry has such impact on my feelings. I really want to be friends with him, but if being friends with him means things like this will happen, it's probably best if I try to ignore him. 

Maddie talks to me about her date with Niall and how he's "changed" for her and blah blah. I kind of zoned out after about 20 minutes and got lost in my own thoughts. Maddie finally stopped talking about 45 minutes later, so I laid down and closed my eyes to try and drown out my thoughts.