I Love It When It Rains

Chapter 7 | Dear Mom

My mother is unlike any mother, seriously. Everyone has said that once in their lifetime, how their mother is the greatest mother they could ask for. Yes, my mother is the greatest mother I could ask for, but I couldn't even ask for one. She teaches me the right things, to become a better person. She lacks English vocabulary and literature, but doesn't lack the true meaning of life. My mother has taught me how big the earth is, bigger than we expect. For all we Americans think about is our country and the names of other country, but we don't consider how diverse it is. How the world is so cruel, yet so beautiful. That I should hope for a better tomorrow, even if it won't come true. I learn all of that from my mother. Dear mom.

Every time I think about how my life has been so rough and so stressful, I think about you. You have a life that no one would ever think it would be so distraught. This awakening has taught me not to give up, to not end my life even if I do think my life is horrible. Because my life isn't horrible like yours. Everything I learn from my life, is for me to teach to my children, just like my mother. From being adopted, being cheated, getting a miscarriage, being an alcoholic, to a 24 hour job. Yet my mother hasn't even thought about giving up on life because she states hat it isn't the meaning of life. It is to complete your main mission on living your standards of a happy life until u perish. And I have learned that from myself, from your stories, and from my experience. Maybe life will finally give u a reward or stay a sin to you till your doom. But I have found my mission and my goal of life. Is to be called a hero. A hero that can protect my mother. A hero that saves other people's lives mentally and physically. A hero that will stay true to be a good person. A hero that will be called a savior.

The world has already turned upside down for you, harshly. Might have swung you around a bit and try to swing you off. But u clenched your fist, dug your toes into the soil, and recklessly stayed put. I wish I can do that, however I don't have the strength. So teach me.

I've never seen you cry. Till now. There's more to say, but but.......... I don't have the time..... what I always say to my mother because I'm a bratty daughter.