So sorry this chapter is short.
I promise to make them longer.
And I apologize to all about the wait, I feel good about this story. Really.
Chapter 1
"It's over."
Don't you just hate those words in a sentence. It could mean anything. Rather it be good or bad. But mostly, and in my case, it was bad.
"B-but why?" I asked, looking up at him about to cry like a baby.
"It's not you, it's me."
Bam. I hate that sentence too. It feels like my brain just got all mushy cause I could hardly think. "It's not you, it's me." Then what the hell is wrong with you? It's not like I'm dumping you because you did something awful. I thought everything was going good. Or at least, I thought. "Don't do anything stupid." he said. What are we? In twilight? "What do you mean?" I asked. "Don't smoke, drink, be a slut, yadda yadda yadda." he said. I wasn't even listening, everything was hitting me all at once. "Take care, Beth." he said. He walked away. I just stood there, looking like an idiot. He didn't want me to smoke, drink, or be slutty. I got in my car, and drove. Tears started forming, but I wiped them away. I couldn't cry over this. This little thing. I mean, we have just been dating a year. That's not a big deal..
2 hours later
"WHY CAN'T YOU LOVE HER!?" I yelled at my tv, I then threw my chocolate ice creamed spoon at him. Tears and snot were falling off of my face. It was gross, but I didn't care. He didn't have to leave her. That cold hearted bitch. My phone started to ring, and I looked at my caller ID. Samantha. "Hello." I answered probably sounding like a dying rhino. "Um, can I speak to Beth?" Samantha asked. "Bitch this is Beth." I said. "What the..what happened?" she asked. "He dumped me." I said, crying even more. Saying those words hurt me. "Aw babe, i'm coming over now." she said. "Can you bring some chocolate and popcorn?" I asked. "Chocolate and popcorn?" She asked. "Yes." I said, looking at my almost finished ice cream. "Well okay, whatever makes you happy." she said. "Thank you, bye." I said. I hung up the phone. I never really listen to people when they say bye. I looked at my tv, and decided to get up. My stomach looked like a pregnant whale. I ate so much in so little time. Was I gonna puke or get more soda? Maybe both. I went into the kitchen and saw a picture of me and my family in Italy 2 summers ago. Greg always wanted to go to Italy. I started to cry more, but felt something come up my throat. Yeah it was gonna be both.
Samantha knocked on the door. "Come in." I said. She walked in, and looked at me. "Are you serious?" she asked. "Whattt?" I asked. I was laying on the couch with a bowl of cookie dough and a liter of pepsi watching lifetime movies, whats so wrong with that? Samantha shook her head, and threw a dress at my feet. "What is this?" I asked. I looked at it, and she was dressed up.."whats going on?" I asked. "Me and you are the same size.." she said touching the dress.."put it on, me and you are going out tonight."
After I had to literally suck my stomach into my ass after eating all that junk food, I finally got the dress on. It was a red dress. It was laced in the back, very sexy. Maybe a little too sexy.."Samantha, I don't know about this." I said, sitting down in my chair. She walked over to me, and started playing with my hair. "You have beautiful hair, and I'm gonna fix it." she said. I sighed, and relaxed. She was my best friend, and I'm suppose to trust her, right?
*
"We are all here for the same reason." he said, looking at the crowd. I bit down on my lower lip that I could taste a little blood. Everyone looked at each other. What were we suppose to say? One man looked at me, and smiled. I smiled back, it was like he had hope, and so did I.
*
"I did it, I'm a miracle worker." Samantha said. I looked in the mirror, and couldn't believe I was looking at myself. Is this really me? I looked so..beautiful. "Wow." I said. "I know now let's go we're gonna be late." she said, pulling my arm. "Late for what?" I asked. She looked at me, and smiled "you'll see." she said.
We were at some club. I couldn't tell you the name, because Samantha pushed me in there. "I want to introduce you to my friends." Samantha said to me. "This is Robert and Kenneth," she said. "Hey, I'm Beth." I said, trying to smile. They both smiled, and said "hey." They were both good looking. I couldn't complain. I wasn't even thinking about Greg. Samantha grabbed Robert by the arm, and me and Kenneth followed them. "Do you like it here?" Kenneth asked me, smiling. Kenneth had blonde hair. It wasn't too long, but wasn't too short. It was perfect. He had rosy cheeks, and cute dimples. He was all around just cute. I smiled, and said "it's a bit loud." He laughed, and said "we're going to a private room, so it won't be as loud." I relaxed a little and smiled. We got to our little room, and it was black all around. You almost couldn't see anything if it wasn't for some bright light that had the Bud Light logo on it. We sat on the couch, and Samantha said "you got it babe?" Robert smiled, and said "yeah, it's right here." Aw, I didn't know Samantha had a boyfriend. That's cute. He put a little bag on the table with some white stuff on it. I laughed. "What is that? Candy?" I asked. "It's like candy." Kenneth said, smiling at me. He got a little tube out, and poured the candy out on the table. "We can't eat it off the table." I said, laughing. They all laughed and Kenneth got a little blade out and straightened the candy into a line. He looked at me, and smiled. He put the little tube up to the candy and snorted it. Oh god..it isn't candy. I was in shock. It was coke. My mouth flew open and I felt like I could hardly breathe. It was Robert's turn. He made a straight line then sniffed it up, and flew his head back. "Damn, it's strong tonight baby." he said, kissing Samantha's neck. I couldn't even look at her. She has never told me she has done this before. Was she embarassed or something? Robert handed Samantha the tube, and she made a straight line. I feel like I'm about to pass out. She looks at me, then puts her nose up the tube, and sniffs it up. Air, I need air. They all look at me, and say "want a hit?" Want a hit? Yeah, I'll hit you in the face for doing this to my best friend. Samantha looks at me, and says "come on Beth it isn't bad." "I don't know about this." I said, nervously. Samantha laughs, and says "you know Beth I always knew you were a mommy's little angel, the girl who never does anything wrong. Have you ever thought that's why Greg dumped you? You never do anything fun, for crying out loud you didn't even let him in your pants." I could feel heat coming from my cheeks. I grab the blade thing and the tube thing from Robert's hand and made a straight line. I'll show her mommy's little angel. I put the tube to my nose, and sniffed.
Burning, I could feel nothing, but burning going through my nose, and around my body.
*
"Is there anyone here that wants to say why their here?" the man asked. Everyone looked around to see if anyone would raise their hand. I didn't know why, but bravery struck me, because I raised my hand. "Aw yes, you, in the back." he said. I cussed under my breath, asking why I did it, and how stupid I am. I got up and walked to the podium. I could feel each person staring at me one by one. I wanted to run, and go home to my mom. But lord knows that wasn't about to happen. I reached the podium, and the guy whispered into my ear, saying "good luck." I smile nervously at him, and look at the crowd. They were all waiting to hear my story. Somebody was about to listen. "Um..hi I'm Beth." I said. Everyone said "hi Beth." I looked at my shaking hands, I can do this, I have to do this.."I'm addicted to coke..and this is my story.."
