If i die now... While people are still developing there lives... Maybe it'll be okay. If i kill myself now... It'll be easier for them to move on.... I know that in the beginning.. They'll be sad but i also know that after awhile... They'll move on without me. They wouldn't care much.. They don't care now why would they then. I feel so overwhelmed. So depressed. So anxious. I don't think i can deal with this much longer. I don't want to feel pain anymore. I want it to be over. I am always thinking... But i don't really know about what. I can't see the future. But im pretty sure i won't have one.
