Lucas Joyner- I'm sorry
I was some what satisfied to be out my misery yet I knew I wasn't dead and wasn't gonna die I can hear every single thing that everyone was saying I can hear Lucas begging me to wake up I can hear my mother praying on the side of my bed and I can feel Devon every time he holds my hand and tells me everything is okay, that he took the guys life the other night without thinking twice , rest is what I needed, a coma was what I was in, no one really understood the pain I was in, I hoped to myself that this was all a dream, a really bad one, I wanted better within but it left me without, I spoke to Josh last night he asked how I was and how everyone is taking everything, I told him to look at me and think about how he's talking to me, I heard the Doctor say "she's holding in there" I wish I could tell her to pull the plug and let me go, the pain, this pain, my pain that I was in was nothing compared to how Lucas is feeling...
Lucas's P.O.V
I lost my best friend and on the verge of losing my girl, you know I've been trying to keep my emotions in by not going out and doing nothing stupid because every time I start doing something stupid I can hear her say, "c'mon let's go to school" or " don't go do nothing stupid" I can hear her when she says "Lucas I Love You" I'm not really eating as much, I think I'm just worried about losing another dawg, I broke my promise the other night, I felt so bad about it I cried and punched a hole in the wall which cut my knuckles, it was blood every where, I been so fucked up in my head for about 2 months now. When she wakes I wanna propose to her and get married I miss her so much and I love her so much, my homie is gone too man we waiting for Yn to wake up for us to bury Josh ima hit y'all back later cause Dev is calling me
Dev: getcho ass to the hospital now *yells*
At that moment you know exactly what I did, I got my ass to that hospital asap
Lucas: wassup
Devon: look *points to Yn sitting up*
Lucas: woah shit *runs to the glass window*
Yn: *looks out the window and looks surprised*
Doctor: *signal's Lucas and Devon to come in*
Lucas: Dev come on
Yn: Lucas *sounds very sick*
Lucas: hey baby
Yn: hey Lucas *tear drops*
Lucas: what's wrong?
Yn: I talked to Josh and he asked how everything is going and I told him, he told me he's in a better place and he misses us, I wanna go back *watery eyes*
Devon: you can't go back Yn
Yn: why
Lucas: we need you here, I need you here
Yn: *wipes tears* where's mom?
Devon: she's at home
Lucas: my moms on the way *looks at phone*
Yn: my head *grabs head*,
Lucas: *jumps up* you okay?
Yn: are you eating?
Lucas: I didn't feel right eating without you
Yn: go eat something I'm fine
Marie (Lucas's Mom): oh mi mamá you okay?
Yn: yes I'm fine *grabs head*
Devon: Yn
Yn: I'm fine *groans*
Lucas: baby
Yn: im bien fina im
Marie: mamá
Yn: yes
Marie: you hungry?
Yn: no
Lucas: Yn
Marie: gesh Lucas dar a mi chica un descanso
Lucas: I'm just happy she's awake *smiles*
Doctor: *comes in and shuts the door* so give her about 24 to 48 hours, we just wanna check some vitals
Lucas: Ma *steps out*
Marie: wassup Lucas?
Lucas: can she stay with us until she gets back on her feet? Cause her mom's not in town and you know the whole situation with
Marie: of course she can, always
Lucas: I really appreciate it mamá
Marie: its no problem son
Lucas: *hugs his mom and breaks down* you know I've been trying to hold everything in, almost lost my girl, I already lost my boy
Marie: Lucas its okay, I'm proud of you okay? You've graduated high school going to college in a few months and you're strong, you're all that I've wanted in a son and I'm proud I love you
Lucas: love you too ma
Marie: grab Yn's things so I can take it home cause I know you aren't gonna leave tonight
Lucas: yeah *stretches*
Marie: alright baby ima go say bye to Yn
Lucas: alright
Marie: *walks back into the room and so does Lucas*
Lucas: *lays next to you*
Yn: Lucas
Lucas: yes baby
Yn: I'm hungry
Marie: you been eating food through a tube for a few weeks now but I'm going to go home and I'll be see you tomorrow mamá *kisses your forehead*
Yn: bye mom
Lucas: bye ma and let's get you something to eat
Yn: Baby
Lucas: yes
Yn: its cold
Lucas: *gives you his blanket* here
Yn: *grabs his face and kisses you*
Lucas: love you
Yn: love you more
Lucas: what do you want to eat?
Yn: you know *starts to fall asleep* I'm not really hungry *sleeping*
Lucas: *kisses your cheek and whispers* I missed you
