[one shot] A Moment In Time

How are you now? Have you already reached your destination? Are you happy there? Me? I'm still here,thinking of you every minute everyday, reminiscing the days we've been, missing every moment we've shared

I can still clearly remember that day, seems like yesterday. You came to our classroom walking inside with prominence, introducing yourself in front with esteem, humor and confidence.

The way you project yourself catches a lot of attention be it a gal or a guy. They were all awestruck at you, watching and listening to you attentively except for me.

Days passed, you suddenly talked to me asking me "why?". I was baffled, and I asked you back "what why?" . You looked at me for a moment and then you asked me why I am ignoring you .

I was puzzled by your question, but still I answered you back with a quetion " why will I not ignore you?". For a moment I thought you will get angry, instead you just walked away sighing.

The truth is you didn't interest me at all, and it's a bother for me to pay you any attention. Since then you keep on talking to me, sometimes you did idiotic things just for me to take notice of you to the point that I feel irritated at you and still I ignored you.

After a while I realized, due to your constant annoying, idiotic, funny and foolish stunt you did everyday just to be noticed I became interested at you

I started talking to you too and I saw in your eyes the happiness and satisfaction. I told you my story and I cried. You became aware of the pain I'm carrying and you understand it.

You even promised that you will help me ease the burden of pain. Everyday you did tell jokes, everyday you did silly stuff just to make me smile and I bought it all even tge corny ones.

Because of you I started smilking again, everything became bright, little by little the pain inside me started to fade and I was happy , really happy.

Days, weeks, months passed and we were still happy, never came a boring and sad day. Those days spent with you were my most cherished and treasured memories.

And then one day, while we were having our normal happy day, you began to complain of headache. I was worried, but you said it was just a simole migraine. And then your headache occur more frequent to the point that you cried bacause the pain became unbearable.

I wanted to take you to tge nearest hospital to have you checked by a specialist but you said you only need to drink your medicine for the pain to subside. After you took your medicine you seem fine and started to make jokes again.

Even though you said you're already doing fine I still can't shake the unexplained feeling I had when I saw you in tears because of that pain.

On your special day, your family organized a special banquet for you and you invited me. You were happy that time, they sang you a song, they gave you gifts and I also gave mine.

You were really grateful and thankful for everything, you gave your thanks, you told everyone how happy and satisfied you are, you even mentioned my name and I was also happy and thankful to you.

But as I listened while you say your piece to them, I can't help but feel afraid, I really didn't understand why I felt that way but I just shake it away.

And then suddenly you paused and with your left hand you pressed your temple. Everyone silently lokked at you, and I saw one of your family rushed towards.

Before he even reached you, you collapsed. Everyone went on panic, with a gasp I went on panic. I rushed towards you shouting your name. When I came near your unconscious body I kept on calling your name, they kept on calling your name hoping you will open your eyes but to no avail.

On the hospital I learned of your sickness. Your family revealed to me your situation. You have an incurable illness and has only few days remaining to live. I cried a lot.

And I hated you for it. You lied to me. You promised me that you will always make me smile and that with you I will be happy. For days I didn't visit you, I stayed in my room crying my heart out.

Numerous calls and texts I received from your family and from you after you regained your consciousness. Your texts says a lot of apologies. Again I cried as I read your messages.

I visited you, you were happy and crying. You didn't stop on saying sorry to me, while holding my hand you explained things to me so that I will understand.

I just stay silent, tears flowed from my eyes while listening to you. You even told me to move on, but I can't, I love you too much to move on and let go.

I stayed with you till your last remaining days, making good and happy memories. I smile as I cry.

You gave me happiness at the same time sadness. I showed you how strong I am as you showedme how you fight and endure your daily struggles. And then you told you're already tired, you wanted to have a rest, and I refused.

I cried while asking you to keep fighting, keep fighting for our sake. I saw your tears and you gave a weak smile, and closed your eyes.

I wail as I shout your name, not believing your gone.

Even now on your 1st death anniversary, I still remember everything, our story. I don't think I will ever forget those memories that we had.

You will always be forever in my heart. I will always remember you.