Trust Issues

Introduction

(Brenda's P.O.V)

Ever since my freshman year I've been struggling to focus in school and hiding my undying lover from James Baker. He is pretty much your typical football player. And of course there's always that pretty rich and popular girl that gets all the guys, everything goes their way and bad hair days don't exist in their world. Then there's me... The awkward looking, shy, quiet, genius girl, and I don't mean to brag but I received at 5K scholarship but the university I'm rooting for is no less than 30K. I know what you're thinking 'how the hell do you expect to get the other 25K' but lemme tell you I have a job for a reason and no I'm not a stripper but I heard they get good money. Actually I might have considered it if I had a good body but I'm sure by now it's already clear I'm not qualified for that job. So back to the point I have a retail job at the moment, I mean I guess I get a pretty decent salary but I usually keep $100 of all the money for my needs and the rest I save up. My parents work so hard just to keep my sister and me living comfortably so I want to make my parents proud. But honestly I don't know what to expect off of my senior year.

My sister is a junior but she's not doing very well. For Mackenzie, my sister, her social life is far more important than school or her grades and she makes fun of me for the way I look. But I know my life will get better when I go to university then we'll see who will be laughing then. At school my sister and "I don't know each other." She hangs out with the popular rich girls. I mean my family isn't rich so I guess she only made it in is because she's hot.

The leader of the poplar girls is MaryAnn Smith. She's like the queen of Lincoln High School. See I don't really care about her but it burns me whenever I see her flirting or touching James. But to make matters worse he lets himself get touched. She's such a slut when she's around him. Actually she is a slut. I haven't told anyone but one time I got home kind of late but my parents were still at work. My room is across from my sister's and I heard moaning. Since I thought she was with her boyfriend at the moment I didn't want to interrupt but after a while I heard a girl's voice but it wasn't clear but when they opened the door the door the girl's voice was clear. I was so surprised yet confused I actually think I wasn't able to breathe at the moment, that mystery girl with my sister was MaryAnn. But those are Mackenzie's life decisions.

(James' P.O.V)

I'm Lincoln High School's best football player and according to the girl and gay dudes I'm the hottest guy. Many girls get nervous when I'm around, or they try to flirt with me. I don't flirt back but I am friendly so they end thinking I'm flirting back. Honestly for me every girl has been the same so far, maybe because of my bad selection. Because not every girl is the same just like not every guy is the same. Since I'm considered popular I'm expected to date the most popular girl which is MaryAnn. I'm cool with being friends with her but she's not the nicest person, and she annoys me sometimes because she won't leave me alone, and she always goes around acting like we're a thing. She thinks I haven't noticed she's been getting with the other football players. I'll admit it she is a very attractive girl but I don't want nor expect anything serious with her.

But believe it or not there is a girl that I've liked since my sophomore year. She's very smart and seems chill. She's also very pretty but I don't think she likes me. The only girl I actually like does not like me. She never looks at me and when I talk to her it seems like she doesn't care and whenever I at least try to have a conversation with her she's so uninterested. Last year I began talking to her out of nowhere during class, I wanted to ask her if she would like to go to homecoming with me but before I even got to ask she looked at me and said, "Look I don't know what is deal with all this questions, but we're in the middle of class and I'm trying to pay attention." I just shut up. I guess that might be what attracts me to her. I just wish I could show her the real me, I want her to see I'm not a stupid jock nor a player. I don't want to play with her, I want to give her my best, and I want her to be in my future.

I've tried to stand out during calculus but most of the time I end up looking like a fool and girls begin saying it's cute but the one I'm trying to impress just rolls her eyes at me for being so childish. Did I forget to mention the time I asked her for help even though I understood it, which was the first time I managed to talk to her without her pushing me away, but then came MaryAnn and snatched me away. I didn't even get to ask her for her name. I really need to do something about this.