Is This Really Love?

Chapter 1

Tommys POV~

I sighed as I looked at myself in the mirror,  "Come on Ratliff.. First day at a new school,  lets not fuck it up" I saw myself all dressed up in black ripped jeans with a white V-neck shirt with my leather jacket over it and my creapers on.  I was thin,  anorexic you could say.  I didn't care though,  my life was practically shit.  After moving to 12 different  school and getting bullied at every single one,  I just gave up.  But hopefully this one will be different.  I mean,  im a Senior now and its my last year of stupid,  shitty school so I hope I will be okay.
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I finished up my almost 9 minute stare and walked to school.  It was a pretty long walk,  about 40 minutes or so,  but I was used to it.  With my mother being a complete whore and a druggie,  I always just had to deal with my problems on my own,  without her support. 
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I arrived at the huge building and looked around.  There were so many people.  Within 10 minutes of walking the hallways I had gotten so many death glares but it was nothing new.  I went to the office and got my schedule and locker combination and was on my way.
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I aporched locker number 131 and entered the combo. I put my stuff in and went to class. It felt like forever untill the bell rang.  I went to my locker to get my stuff and I saw this guy.
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He was the most beautiful creature I had ever layed eyes on. (Oh yeah.. Didn't mention it but im gay.  Dont like it go fuck yourself)  I checked him out from my locker.  He had black hair and beautiful blue eyes.  He had nailpolish and wore makeup too.  I was shocked. 
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I was about to aproch him but suddenly,  a girl jumped in his arms and started kissing him.  She had long black hair and brown eyes and you could tell she was all over him.
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I sighed and went to class. Before I left I noticed he was watching me. Does he like me?  Maybe he wants to date me!  Im sure.. Shit.. Stop it Ratliff.  You just saw him making out with a girl whats wrong with you?  I asked myself.
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I sighed sadly agian and tried to forget about him but couldn't.  He was the only thing on my mind.  I was obviously daydreaming.  "Ratliff! " The teacher yelled which made me jump a bit.  "Hm?  Yes Ms. Collins? " I responded back.  "Whats the answer for problem 6? "  "Um,  x squared minus negative 3? " "No you dumb blonde" she shouted.  "Stop daydreaming and maybe you will learn something for once" she said as the whole class laughed. 
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Screw her,  I thought to myself.  "Next time you see him you will talk to him Ratliff.. You will.. " I thought to myself as I continued day dreaming.