My Dark Angel Of Serenity

All about Me

I stood in the rain watching him talk, I didn't really hear him although he was shouting because of the noise, I couldn't get my brain to work right at the moment, it was just a ramble of phrases that didn't make sense

"I'm sorry....Its not you.......I wish I didn't have to....we're not right together.....I'm not good enough........You deserve better"

I couldn't understand him, it felt strange, like I was there but only physically, I looked at him with his wet hair plastered to his face, the blonde so unnaturally light against his dark skin, I told him blonde didn't suit him but he never really listen to me.

"I'm sorry Kat, I really am"

I didn't reply

"Kat?"

I just stared at him as the rain fell harder

"Kat are you even listening?"

Something inside me snapped at that moment, I don't know what but it felt kind of like my sanity

"Kat I'm serious, we're over okay, don't get all mopy on me, I really don't need that now"

Those brown eyes used to hold so much love in them, I guess it was all a dream now

"Kat!!"

I smiled at him

"Hey Luke, remember when I fell off the roof and you caught me, you said you'd always catch me when I fall?"

"Kat come on this isn't..."

"Do you remember?" I cut him off

"Yes I do"

"Today I'm falling and your not there so just know that the day you fall I won't be there either, enjoy your day Luke" I smiled and walked away from the park, I needed to get away from here, I needed a break...

I walked into silence when I got home, it was always like this now days, that eerie quiet you get when some things not right, some things missing.

I walked upstairs up into my room and laid flat out on the wooden floor, I'm still wet from the rain and I'm too lazy to get cleaned up, I look at the ceiling and feel that stinging sensation in my throat and my eyes go all blurry, I can't cry now I can't, I need to be strong, I can't afford to break down now.

I stand up and walk into my bathroom (yes my room has its own bathroom) I turn on the shower get undressed and climb in, I stay there for about half an hour before I decide to get and go get something to eat.

Downstairs I sit at the kitchen table eating steak and mash, I hear my dad come in and I immediately just wanna go upstairs, he walks in with a tired look on his face, he hasn't shaven in days, my dad is atleast 6.3 with a head full of thick light brown hair and soft brown eyes, he's a big man and I mean as in muscle big, he used to be a body builder but now he's a professional mechanic, don't get me wrong he's not the grease monkey kinda mechanic, he's got his own business and all but he's like genius when it comes to cars, must of gotten my talents from him, he looks at me and sighs "How was your day?" He asks sitting across from me after fetching a beer 

"Okay I guess, the usual you know" I didn't feel like telling him about Luke,

"How are you feeling?" 

"Dad..." 

"We need to talk about what happened Kat" he cuts me off 

"No we don't, there's nothing to talk about" I stand up and put my plate in the sink 

"Kat please..." 

"Goodnight dad" 

I kissed him on the cheek and went. upstairs into my room and flopped on my bed.

It wasn't always like this you know, I used to be daddys little girl, the apple of his eye you could say...that is up until 4 months ago when mom died 

(Flash back) 

"MOOOOM" I shouted from the kitchen 

"Oh sweet heart don't shout your not an ape monkey" she came in smiling at me, she had long black hair that fell past her waist and big dark chocolate brown eyes with strange golden rings around her pupil that you could only see in the dark, weird I know but beautiful, she was slim but had a big bone structure so she didn't look like a scarecrow, she had full lips and a figure that looked more like an hour glass only with smaller hips.

"Mom there's no such thing as an ape monkey and where's the cereal?" I asked

"You never know and I forgot to buy, sweetheart I'm going to take your little brother with me while I go to the shop okay?" She kissed my forehead and smiled at me, her teeth white against her dark skin,

"Sure mom, love you"

" Love you too kitty" 

(2 hours later)

"I'm sorry, the driver was on his phone and didn't see the light turn red, the truck smashed the minivan from the drivers side..."

I saw my dad drop to his knees, I knew what the officer was saying was hard to believe but I needed to know,

"There was a little boy, my brother Mick....is he...."

My voice began to crack,

"They were both killed on impact, I'm so sorry" 

I couldn't think of anything, I saw my dad, my hero, on his knees...crying.

(Normal)

That's the day I lost myself, its been four months and I still haven't cried and Luke breaking up with me after 4 years was not going to break me, we've been together since I was 10, known each other our whole lives, I wasn't going to cry over him!!

I'm strong...I'm strong...I'm strong...

I repeated this in my head like I do every night and let the darkness pull me into sleep...

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A/N

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HEY EVeryONE :D I'm new to this and I have no idea what I'm doing but I really hope you'll like the story !! Sorry its so short but like I said, I'm new and I'm just getting used to all this :) hope you'll give me a chance!! LOVE YOU STRANGER