I can't love her Matty. I said
You have to stop loving her Rose. It's gonna be hard but you gotta try. She was really worried about me she found me passed out on the bathroom floor.
Why me Matty? Why did I have to love her so hard and do her wrong? Matty I fucked up. And now she's moving on. Leaving me behind while I'm sitting here still loving her. I cried into her arms.
As I sat there crying into Matty's arms she had gotten a text. Guess who. Madison. I just want my best friend to be there for me but no she left for her girlfriend. I thought.
I know why your thinking Rose. I'm not going. Not when your like this. I'm not leaving your side till I know you won't cut or at least hurt yourself. Matty was really worried about me.
Lexi. Was the only person on my mind as I sat there crying. I kept asking Matty why was I so stupid. Why did I mess up. I missed her to death. I hated her but loved her so much.
Rose? Matty asked
Y-yes M-Ma-Matty?
It's time you get some sleep you've been crying all day. She wanted me to sleep but I couldn't
Matty n-no I-I-I can't. Memories are gonna come back and it hurts waking up and realizing it isn't real.
Let's go Rose. NOW. She scared me a little when she said now it was in an anger way.
Me being a baby start crying.
Fine M-Matty.
Matty was there when I needed her. She was my best friend. Well second best friend if you count the blade.
Last thing I hear before I fall asleep is Matty.
Goodnight Rose.
I will never stop loving you. I will love you forever.
Most of the things in this chapter is true not all of it. But most of it😔
~charisma
