Wounded Heart [ON HOLD]

Chapter 10 : Confidence

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             *ALEX'S POV*

I just stood there glued to the ground as I watched her take that dumb fuck's hand and walk away. I really messed up bad this time. I know i had to stay away from her but  i didn't know it would end like this.

"Ah! This is all my fault." i say running my hand through my hair.

I tried so hard to distance myself from her and not pay attention to her but at every corner i turned she was there smiling, laughing and that made me want to be near her. Her day went on so well while I like the stalker i am kept watching her from a distance until I made that scene.

Seeing her walk into the cafeteria and sit down with that guy's arm around her waist made me so angry. She didn't even try to push him away and that was what hurt me. Fine call me jealous because that's what i am!
I managed to control my body from walking over and riping his arm off but that didn't stop my imagination. Jace kept taunting me and pushing my cool until he said
"See man, I told you she would go for his type." he rolled his eyes with a grin so wide i felt like shoving my foot up his ass.

But that's when I  snapped and my anger and jealousy got the best of me and when she gazed into my eyes with hers looking so innocent and before i knew it, I was locking lips with Natalie...
I knew it would hurt her and i went ahead and did it even after all the hurt she already goes through. Whenever i feel anything remotely similar to emotion, I tend to push it away by causing pain to myself or even to others.

I'd struck a nerve and for a while I felt happy that I could inflict the pain that I felt onto her but when a tear escaped from her face, I realized what I'd done.

I pushed Natalie off me and ran after her but when I stopped her and she told me I was hurting her with my touch, I snapped and told her how this pain doesn't compare to mine. I wanted to ask her if only my touch hurts her and his doesn't? I just composed myself.

She caught me by surprise when she told me that all I said to her was lies and that I'm never going to change.

I blinked a few times making the anger disappear with every blink only to see her scared angry face. How could I do this to her?
At this point I knew apologies would be useless yet i tried to make up for this... I just wish i could tell her how I feel and why i care, and why I do this!

She threw me back when she said "you didn't save me that day in fact it's you i need saving from!" referring to the incident with Jace almost raping her. she was emotionless when she said this, she meant every word.

And i have to take credit for how she is right now. This was like getting your heart ripped out from your chest only to be ripped even more.

I had screwed up any chance I had to  experience how it would feel to be trusted and cared for.   
Maybe Tyler is the one who can save her from me. I know I'm the cliche jealous type but I can't help it when someone tries to take something that's mine!

Was Olive mine? Is this how I feel?
It doesn't matter now 'coz I don't deserve her.

               *OLIVIA'S POV*

After all the pain and headaches that have co-existed with Alex, I just want to forget him. But I don't think that's even possible.
The car ride with Tyler was silent until I broke it.