Here I sit waiting for the day I understand all you have to say.
Are you scared of what you feel or scared of what you don't feel?
You said keep it on the down low but what I didn't understand is that you wanted it so low even we don't know. That's kind of funny isn't it? Misery can be hysterical if you let it be.
I guess I'm one who finds the humor in everything, standing lost for words so all I can do is laugh, and laugh, and laugh.
You always ask me "Why do you laugh so much?" I always reply "Because I can, do you have a problem with that?"
You said you'd like to be together but now you don't know whether we are or not. Honestly I don't either because every time I think we're getting close it seems as if you've left and gone away. I'd say your being distant but does that imply you were once close?
I wouldn't say this is making me sad only confused and frustrated. I know how I feel but when it comes to you I'm so confused, usually I can read people but to me you're a closed book with a lock and key that you threw away years ago. Maybe it's not as difficult as we're making it, maybe it is. Maybe you should just open up, but I realize why you don't. I didn't either before, honestly I wish I still didn't but I do and you you should to, you can trust me....
Understand This, when I said I want to be with you I meant it. Maybe you wouldn't believe me because you don't understand why anyone would want to be with you but understand this, I meant it. It's not something I say to everyone despite popular belief.
I guess I'll stop hoping and simply start wishing it will happen because the more hope you put into a situation the more it hurts when it doesn't happen.
