I could write a book

chapter 2. vodka

Sometimes it's okay. Whether it's life,  sex, food, or cats. Sometimes they're pretty fucking great. Every once in a while they're exactly what you need.  The perfect fit for your mood,  or perhaps your mood conforms perfectly to them.

Sometimes we need something,  whether it's good,  bad,  ugly,  or morally confusing.

Can you do it?

The feeling of wanting something can't always be relieved because we don't always know what we want.

Giving into a simple desire to get something that you want right now is an easy way to become a spoiled, fiscally irresponsible, morally degenerate,  emotionally incoherent,  mentally loopy, socially looser-than-a-hookers-asshole type person. You're not actually getting what you want, you're filling a void that you create yourself. Not every hole needs to be filled, not everything needs to be perfect. That being said,  I tend to be one of those people sometimes, and so,  I'm guessing,  do you.  So what's the point of this information? The point is to show you that you don't know yourself, the idea is thus;

People aren't perfect, ideals are.

You have the ideas of perfection but that doesn't mean you should pursue them whenever you feel like it. Simple pleasures taste better when indulged in only once in a while.

Ideals aren't all objective,  most are dependant on the person judging. Although most people judge others more harshly than they judge themselves,  some people do dislike themselves more than others. These are the people that engage in self pleasung behavior and can lead to addiction.

Assuming you like yourself well enough, if you held yourself to the same standards you hold other people, eight times out of ten you would find yourself filled with more self loathing than mainstream media deems as 'hip' (Hating yourself is popular!  #kms #fml #milf).

Some people judge themselves harshly and break, giving in to desire,  but some grow because of it and learn to be the best they can be without requiring pleasure in order to accomplish things. But growing as a person is quite the same as building muscles, actually a more accurate description would be building up a tolerance to something;

You're motivation is the pleasure with which you drown yourself. If you go through more motivation than you have, you will give up, feel horrible, and have no motivation to do ANYTHING (like working out too much on one day). If you accomplish too little you feel like a loser, too much and you're burnt out, and if you do just enough you feel great.

Sometimes it takes us a while to find our limits in life, whether it's the amount of alcohol we can drink, the amount of weights we can lift, or the amount of chores we can do in one day without burning ourselves out.

Your ideal should be what you aim for, and if you can't get it right away DON'T WORRY, very few people have boundless energy, a bottomless stomach, or a superhuman liver. Try a little at first, then a lot, then in between. Keep working up to more and more, but make sure your body can keep up. Rest, heal, recover, push through, it's not going to be easy. But unless you keep at it you'll never get better.

Alcohol isn't good for you, neither is eating too much,  running too far,  or climbing too high (and then falling). But people still participate in eating contests, run marathons, and climb Mount Everest. Just because something it's bad for you, doesn't mean you shouldn't do it, it just means you have to be determined, desperate,  or forced to try.

If you do something that's bad for you just to 'fill the void' stop doing it. You know how you fill a void?  You don't,  you close the door on it. Voids are there to replace a personality, don't let them.