Thick

Part 1

I was currently staring at myself in the full length mirror in my bathroom. my tired eyes traveling up and down my body. my hair was a mess, the long brown and blond locks sticking out in ever direction. my plump lips split and bloodied, my small round nose slightly swollen.my gaze trailed down my plump body. I had scratches and bruises covering my arms and legs, a large bruise covered my left side.   Tears streaked my face as the Adrenalin started to fade and pain became  noticeable. I picked up  a washcloth and ran some warm water over it and started to clean up my wounds. it stung but at least I was feeling something. tonight was suppose to be the night he proposed, the night that we agreed to share our lives together and live happily ever after. if only that is how it would of played out..

-Earlier that night- 

"Baby! are you ready? we have reservations at 7 and it is now 6:17!"  I smiled at my reflection as I imagined the angry look he had on his face wile he was waiting for me to get ready. He was probably sitting on the couch watching football and checking his watch every two seconds. 

"Yes! I am ready I'll be right down!" I took one last look at myself and smiled, My hair was in loose curls framing my face and hanging low on my shoulders. My make up was dramatic, and my lips stained red. I looked over my outfit and gave myself a approving nod. I have on a form fitting  sleeveless black dress that  stops just above my knees and it  shows off my curves perfectly.

when I walked into the living room he was right where I knew  he would be, sitting on the couch watching football and looking bored as hell and kind of nervous? hmm. 

"Come on babe! we are going to be late!" he took my small hand in his large one and pulled me behind him.

the car ride from our house to the restaurant would of took ten minutes but when we got halfway there traffic was backed up and lights were flashing in every direction. 

"Looks like a accident. ugh we aren't going to make it on time" He sighed heavily and leaned his head back on the headrest. 

"It'll be ok baby, we can eat somewhere else" I  said as I  laid my hand on his thigh 

"I just wanted this night to be perfect is all." He looked over at me and his brown eyes meet my green ones. 

"I love you so much darling."  his words sent a shiver down my spine

"And I love yo-"  my words were cut short by screeching tires. everything went in slow motion from that point. we had no time to react, the car was speeding and didn't see traffic stopped and plowed into us. Colliding with Nicks side sending us flipping over. I heard screaming and screeching but nothing was making since.  everything  paused and went silent. I looked over and Nick was reaching for me. The car had flipped onto its top and we were hanging upside down, our seatbelts holding us in our places.

"It's ok Cat. stay calm love, I'm right here and I'm never leaving you"  I didn't realize the screams I heared were from myself.  I closed my eyes and took a deep breath but when I opened them again and looked at Nick, he was suronded by white light and I had no time to react before we were hit once more.  this time blackness took over and everything was silent. 

I was going in and out of consciousness, but when I woke  I was being placed on a cot. My eyes were searching frantically for Nick, but he was no where to be found. 

"Nick? where is Nick!!"  tears were falling down my blood streaked face. The paramedics ignored me as they hurried to get me inside the ambulance. 

"please just tell me where he is!" I was begging and still nothing. once we were closer to the ambulance I seen a second cot but this one was covered completely. my heart stopped and I felt so bad for whoever that was. but then I seen something that broke me. a arm was hanging from the side and I instantly recognized the colorful tattoos that covered it.  my heart stopped and I broke. 

I sat up and tried to push the paramedics away from me, once i was free I ran to his side. I took his cold hand in mine and laid on the ground beside him. 

"Please wake up Nicky, please love. I'm so sorry. this is the best night of our life remember?" I felt arms on me and then I was being pulled away from him. away from my dead boyfriend. 

"Noo! no let me go!! I need him!! I need him, oh god I need him"   

I was placed on the cot again and then was injected with something and soon I was asleep. 

I awoke later that night in a hospital room, my bestfriend  Lexi by my side. she looked tired and her eyes were swollen from crying. 

"Lex?"

her gaze found mine and she was instantly beside me

"Where's Nick?"  a tear escaped her eye and she shook her head no.

"Cat baby, he's gone. I'm so sorry" 

I shut down after that. I didn't even cry anymore. I just felt nothing.. soon a doctor came in and told me I was free to go and handed me a small bag with Nicks belongings in it. I held it close to my heart as Lexi walked me from the hospital and drove me home. 

-end-

And that is how I got here, standing in my underwear looking in the mirror holding a small black velvet box in my hand. I walked quietly back to our bed and laid on his side, it still smelt like him. I slowly opened the box and tears filled my eyes once more. A   beautiful ring sat perfectly in the middle of the box. It's silver and princess cut with one big diamond in the middle and a bunch of small ones surrounding it. I placed it on my left ring finger and started to break again. I would of said yes, we would of had a fall wedding, everything would of been great. but he was taken from me. and I will never have that love again. I will never have my chance at a happy ending.