Pandora Inside Me

Chapter 3

" Why did you leave me?". Hot tears is falling from my eyes. "Dad, pleas answer me!". He doesn't move or speak. Is this a dream, I ask myself. I wish he could hug me and know all the pain and suffering I had to go through since his death. I motion to walk towards him but he steps back immediately. " Dad!" He doesn't seem to react to my words. " I feel empty without you. I wish it was me instead of you, who passed away. Mom, Savannah and everyone else does not seem to understand why I'm feeling so much guilt. Please dad say something!". I fall to my knees, crying hysterically. Why can't he just comfort me. I feel someone shaking me but I don't know where it's coming from.

" Wake up Alexandra Trudeaudunn!". I hear my mom's voice but I don't want to open my eyes. Eventually hear voice becomes louder and I start to open my eyes. My mom immediately embraces me into a tight hug. I can feel how wet my face is, I can't believe I had been crying while I was sleeping. " I'm okay mom. You don't need to worry about me.". She pulls away from me and looks me in the eyes, " I'll be in my room if you need me. Please don't distance yourself from your family. Its killing me to see you like this.". She leans over me and kisses my forehead, then exists my room. I get up and go to the bathroom. Being alone is something I've grown accustomed to. I throw some foam soap into the bath and I open the hot water tap. When the bath is filled with bubbles , add cold water. I strip out of my clothes and I get into the bath. I lay back trying to relax.

He kisses me passionately. I move my hands to his hair. His hand goes under my t-shirt , causing butterflies to form in my stomach. He pulls away to look into my blue eyes. I long for his mouth on mine.

I sit up suddenly, feeling flustered. I must have fallen asleep in the bathtub. I grab the soap and begin to wash myself. When I'm done I dry myself and wrap the towel around my body. I walk into my room and put on clean underwear and PJ's. I get into bed and I grab a novel and begin to read. I get caught up in the novel and eventually I fall asleep with the book on my chest.

I wake up to a smell that is mouth watering that comes from the kitchen. I pull the blankets off me and I go freshen up. I can't believe I woke feeling so refreshed. I go downstairs only to find my mom cooking and Savannah sitting at the counter. " Wow Ally, you look like crap.". I smile and walk over to my sister. I hug her tightly, " What are you doing here? I missed you so much.". She laughs and starts to tell me how her time in Russia was. She stayed with my grandparents while she was studying there. We talk until the food is done. We eat breakfast and continue to talk. When we are done Savannah offers to drive me to school. While we in the car we sing along to random songs that play on the radio. We arrive at school and we say our goodbyes. I can't believe I feel happy.

The school day goes on and break time comes. Lesley and I have lunch in the library and she tells me about her boyfriend. After that we start to fan girl over the hottest celebrity males. When break time is over I walk to my next period. While I'm sitting writing down notes in my book, I feel someone's presence next to me. As I look up I'm met by the most mesmerizing hazel eyes ever. " Hi. I'm Damon and you are?". I gulp and looking away quickly. I didn't even pay attention to how hot he looked. His eyes alone told me how compassionate he is. I look back at him and he was watching me the whole time. " Um... I'm Alexandra, nice to meet you." . After this encounter I can't simply write anything. So i pass time by thinking about his eyes. The bell rings and I'm off to my next class. The day drags on and eventually it's home time.