I'm lay on the hospital bed breathing in ... and breathing out . The pain I'm going through is the worst and to think I'm going to be having two of them haunts me .
I don't mean I don't want these children because I do and even though I've never met them or held them I know I'm going to love them with all my heart . I feel like hearts have to be big because no matter how evil , strange , mean or weird someone may be there's always a reason for it . I don't believe that there's one person on this earth who isn't loved and has never loved someone .
Love is what comes naturally to all humans so for people to murder or hurt someone , something has made them do that . I'm not saying that murdering someone is okay but something in that criminals life has caused them to hurt someone else .
Therefore I could never hate someone . In my teen years I could've because I was moody and selfish but after my rocky road of life , for example Isaac , he taught me how to truly love myself and others . I'm forever thankful .
(A/N I'm crying)
And for Jack I'm truly thankful , he causes me to laugh until I cry , love until my heart hurts and he's made me feel like no one else possibly can and here I am having his children .
People will say I'm young to have had 3 children but I'm happy , I'm healthy and I'm loved / loving so why could I possibly worry about .
"I'm back baby , are you okay " Jack whispers as he walks into the room with a drink and some food .
" yeah it's just hurting " I smile .
He sits on a chair right next to me .
He strokes my head and talks to me about names . We still don't know the gender so we have a variety .
•Jacks names :
Girls:
Alice
Cara
Milly
•Savannahs
Girls:
Heidi
Winnie
Saskia .
(A/N comment which is your fav one)
•Jacks boys names :
Josh
Bobby
Kai
•Savannahs boys names:
Buster ( I'm pretending that was her dads middle name)
Ethan
Cameron
(A/N comment your fav please )
Names are really important for me so The children won't even have a name until there like 16 probably , me and Jack always joke about names like calling it bob or something , I love bob Marley so no offence to bob, but seriously like your going to hear your name everywhere so make it a nice one .
