Now What?

Chapter 5

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Shocked.
That was the only thing I could feel right now, I even thought I heard him wrong for a moment.
"Come again?"
"I said I'd be killed unless you get married to their son, Hazel"
"Dad are you joking? am I getting punked or something, is there a camera recording aloof this?"
"I know you're shocked, because I still cannot believe this myself I never knew we will get to this level with them I'm sorry," he said now looking at the plate infront of him "but honey you know I'll never let you do it, I never said you have to do it, so don't even think about it" he added looking at me now
"How do you want me to not think about it dad, huh? they're going to kill you and you're asking me to just forget about everything!"
He was silent, everyone was.
I actually can't believe he's asking me to shrug it off like it was a minor thing.
"Can't you do anything about it?" I said my voice lowering a bit
"I'm afraid I can't" he said, disappointed.
"Well, excuse me now I want to go rest in my room and recover from the shit I just heard, give me a couple of days to think about it please"
I said getting off the table and then I went up to my room.
I washed my face, took a deep breath then went to sleep, If I wanted to make important life decisions, I'm deffinetly gonna need some rest to try and figure things out. I need liked the idea of being part of a mafia gang and I'll never will because look where it has taken us to.
The next morning I woke up and stayed at bed all day, I could sense a headache kicking in from thinking too much. I didn't feel like doing anything, and I also needed to know what I'm gonna do with the major problem we're in now, What I was deffinetly sure of is that I'm not gonna let them kill my father, but getting married is the part that is killing me, I couldn't even imagine it. But if I refused they'll have to do it, they'll have to murder him and I don't think I can stand that ... at all. Again what If they killed my mother then too ... I'd sure be devastated, or maybe I won't be able to live again if they're not with me anymore.
But ... how I'm gonna marry a guy I've ever met and I know nothing about? what if he treated me badly and abused me and locked me up in a room and didn't give me food and used me as a slave ... wait that's too much, but still! The whole idea doesn't seem right or comfortable but it's the only thing I'm forced to choose.
Too many questions in my head and confusion running all over me, yes I wasn't wrong I got a headache.
After that, I decided to take a refreshing shower and get out of my bed of misery.
During my hot and relaxing bath I tried to loosen up a bit. just take thirty minutes of my life and enjoy them, at the bathroom.
When I got out an idea came to me, I got a coin out and placed it between my thumb and index finger. They say that, when faced with two choices, simply toss a coin. it works not because it settles the question for you, but because in that brief moment when the coin is in the air, you suddenly know what you are hoping for. and I did it, I counted to three and tossed the coin up and there it was
I'll just marry the guy
And the problems will go away
Because I can't cope with losing anyone of my family.
It's over, it's set. I got dressed up and went down to tell my decision to my parents.
"Mum, dad, I made up my mind"
"What do you mean Hazel?" mum said horrified as she got what I was about to say
"I'll marry their son, and that's final"
"Are you crazy Hazel, I won't let you do that, I told you before!" dad shouted angrily, I'm really worried about him he gets mad way too much
"I can't risk your life, I can't imagine losing you, I'll just marry him and everything will be okay, we'll get through this" I said, tears started to form in my eyes. how much I hate this.
"But-"
"No dad, it's final, I'll just do it, that's what is better to all of us so please respect my decision"
Then he just came towards me and pulled me into his arms, hugging me tightly.
"You should know Hazel, that your mother and I love you more than everything in this world and we're really sorry" he said, I can hear his voice cracking a bit.
Mum was crying, she also gave me a hug and said how sorry they were, but I believe that they don't have to apologize at all, it's not like it's something they can control right?
The first thing I did next was call Rose and Emma to come over as I had to tell them what I'm facing.
They came in a rush and I told them everything,
They were shocked too,
Well ofcourse they'll be.
"Are you sure you want to do this Hazel, I don't think it's a good idea" said Rose
"I'm sure, as I told you before guys, I'll do anything for the sake of my family and their safety"
"Well, we respect your decision, but you should know that what you're doing is too dangerous, hell you're getting through mafia deals!" said Emma
"I know Emma, I hope the guy and his family are not cold hearted jerks, but I don't think anyone making someone choose between his life and his daughter's got a heart at all" I said
Well that's the only thing I'm afraid of now, them ...
What they'll be like, and how old is the guy and how does he look like, damn I don't even know his name!
But I like to always stay positive and think of the best.
"Rose, what happened with you and Ed? you talked?" I asked her, I'm a bad friend I forgot to ask her earlier.
"It's over now, we broke up,
I told him that I knew he was cheating and he didn't know what to say, so he only said sorry and that he didn't know what he was doing. then he asked for another chance but I refused, I don't think I can keep up with a person cheating one me" she said with hurt in her eyes.
"And how are you feeling now?" said Emma
"I think I'm fine, I'm moving on, I don't need him"she said
"That's my girl!" Said Emma and raised her hand up to give her a high five.
And I just shook my head at her ... that girl.
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