Love, Life and Lyrics

Chapter Eight

CHAPTER EIGHT

“HE IS SUCH A FUCKING ASSHOLE!” I scream as I fling myself on my bed. “I can’t believe I fell for his shit. I should have known men like him are all the same.” I carry on ranting to Star who is sat on the end of my bed.

“Kienna, Kellan is not a bad guy. He just …” Star starts to say.

“Are you defending him? You know he is in the wrong. Why didn’t you tell me he had a girlfriend before I started going off gallivanting with him. A warning would have been nice!” I snapped at her.

“I am sorry OK! When he is with you, he is different. He’s happy. I didn’t want to be the one to spoil that. That is why I didn’t say anything.” She tells me.

I turn on my bed to face away from her. She sighs and walks out of my room. I know I am being a bitch but I need to be alone.  Why was it that I had such bad luck with guys?! I left England because I fell for the wrong guy and now it is happening all over again. Although I don’t think Kellan is quite as bad as Drake. But then again what do I know? I thought Drake was a great guy when I met him for the first time too. I fell asleep to the thoughts of my past.

***

I awoke with a loud banging. I quickly shoot out of bed only to lose my balance and stumble to the floor. I hear my door open so I look up and see Kellan’s huge frame.

“What the fuck are you doing here?!” I shouted at him.

“What a lovely welcome. It is nice to see you too.” He replies. He offers me a hand to get up but I push it away and climb to my feet on my own. I choose this moment to look at his face and I notice his purple swollen eye.

“That is a real shiner you got there!” I say and start to laugh.

“Thanks to you.” He replies with a grin on his face.

“You deserved it, Asswhole!” I say in a flippant tone.

“Yeah I did” He says in a sad voice. “Kienna I can’t say how fucking sorry I am. I really have enjoyed every moment I have spent with you and I hope there will be many more. The thing with Abby is complicated. I feel more for you after knowing you for a couple of days than I feel for Abby after dating for a couple of years.” He explains to me and I take a seat on my bed.

He keels down in front of me so that we are face to face as I tell him “What do you expect me to say to that Kel? I am not the type of girl that will be the other woman. I have more self-respect than that and I am not about to ask you to break up with her because you hardly know me.”

“I know you are not that type of girl Kienna but …” He sighs and looks away. He abruptly gets up and leaves the room. “I have to go.”  He voice is cold and free of emotion.

I chase after him shouting “You are such a fucking Bastard. As soon as things get hard you run!”

“You fucking hypocrite! The whole reason you moved here is because you are running! So don’t you dare give me a fucking lecture.” He shouts back.

“I can’t believe you just said that. You don’t have the faintest fucking idea of why I left the Uk. But I am wishing I never did because then I would have never met you!” I say with tears streaming down my face. I see the vivid images of the memories I have tried so hard to keep buried.

“Kienna…” He says in a sympathetic voice.

“Don’t! Just don’t.” I say with a catch in my voice.

 I then turn and go back to the comfort of my room. I hear the door slam and then everything goes quiet. I am so tired from all the crying. I haven’t cried since the incident! And now I do all because of him!

A few minutes later I hear star come into my room and she gets into bed with me and gathers me in a motherly hug. “I am so sorry Kienna. I tried to make him leave but he listens to no one.” She says in a sad tone.

“It is okay. I know that it wasn’t your fault. Thank you for being there for me.” I reply as I drift off to sleep.

“Anytime sweet. If you ever need me, I am always here.” she says just before I fall into a deep sleep.