dear Daniel,
I've been listening to a song that truly made my heart cry. It was unintentional as I clicked the song but as the first lines were sang, I had the visions of our relationship, from past to future.
"When the stars are in her eyes and the sun is in her smile, the only moment in a life that happens at same time is when a woman loves a man.."
I tried to hold myself but I could not help but weep. All my life I had been a cry baby, but whenever I cry for you it's always special because I'm shedding tears for the one I love the most. You said you're sick of my crying. But forgive me as I weep for another time, as I listenened to the song I tried asking myself some questions.
My love, how many times did I hurt you?
Am I always there for you whenever you're hurting?
"And you'll be amazed that when you're stumblin' she'll fight for you and won't let you give in, she'll do all that she can, when a woman loves a man.."
Since when is the last time did I let you fight? When is the last time did I let you stand up all by yourself?
I'd like to tell you I'm sorry whenever I protect you. All I cared for was myself, I never let you protect what is precious to you. I never let you be yourself. Whenever you fall down, am I helping you get up once again?
Honey, I'm sorry for all those times I let you down. For all those times I made you sad. I'm sorry for my selfishness. I'm sorry if I'm not loving you enough. I'm sorry for not taking care of what you need.
"And no other will exist, she'll put a laugh in every kiss, when a woman loves a man.."
Thank you for being the one destined to me.
Thank you for making my dream come true. I always wanted to get married to the man I love.
Thank you for holding my hand, thank you for kissing me.
Thank you for telling me 'I love you' everytime.
Thank you for being brave enough to love an imperfect person like me.
Thank you for understanding my faults.
Thank you for staying by my side.
Thank you for believing in me.
Thank you for taking care of my heart.
Thank you for lighting up my whole world with just your smile.
Thank you for embracing me tight so I could hear your heart beat.
Thank you for taking risks just for us.
Thank you for making me cry
Thank you for waking me up
Thank you for your morning messages that would brighten up my days
Thank you for being God's greatest gift
Thank you for helping me write our happy ever after
Thank you for telling me I'm beautiful
Thank you for seeing past my soul
I have lots to thank you for. My language doesn't speak but my heart does.
I will fight for you from beginning to the end. It's because I love you more than what my heart could utter. There would be no one who could replace you. You're the only one who showed me that imperfect people like us could fall in love.. That I could fall in love. You saved my heart.
I love you beyond what we could both see, beyond what we could both feel.
I love you, my curly haired-mood swinger-annoying-feminine man-glutton-idiot-veggie hater husband.
If this is all a dream, I'd rather not wake up. I'd pick up whatever walk of life we'll have. As long as you're by my side. I love you so much my darling angel. I don't care what anybody else has to say. You're the only one for me, you're the only one I'll love.
Till death do us part.
Love,
Clarice "Lili ng Buhay mo."
