Blue

Black Tulip

The smell of french toast wakes me up. So i hop in the shower and run downstairs. When i get in the kitchen Queen is in the kitchen singing and cooking. "You got that whip appeal on me, whatever you want, its alright with me." She got a hella old soul. Cause i dont know what the hell she singing . But she sounds so good. Her back is to me so i sneak up, n rap my hands around her waiste. She gasps. "Babe you scared me." She says turning around to give me a kiss. 

I pick her up and put her on the counter and we start kissing. Man i dont know where i would be if i wasnt wit Queen. Thats why i keep her wit me. Even though she be tripping alot she still got me no matter what. She keep me on my p's n q's. A Queen always takes care of her King. She strong for the both of us.

"King move you gone make me burn the food." She say hopping off the counter. I love it when she call me King. Man i love her to death forreal. "Queen you ready for tomorrow?" I ask sitting down at the counter table. "Nah, but im ready for you to eat, out on the field. Thats all im looking forward to." She say giving me another kiss. "She already know imma be eatin out there come football season.

Oh yea i aint even tell yall. My dad owns a couple football and basketball teams. My dad travels but we live in Chicago to be closer to family. My step moms a athletic trainer for the Oklahoma City Thunders. He bought me this crib im in now. You could say im spoiled. But it wasnt always like this. My dad was an orphan and my mom was beatin by my grandmother and father at a young age up until she was 16 when they were killed by a drunk driver. So in a way they just want the best for me.  But i grind still because as i said before my mom is a single parent. My dad dont mess wit my mom so he gives me money but wont give my mom a dime. So i just make my own money to give her even though i really dont need to. 

Wit a ring my dad'll send me 20 g's. How i feel is that if your not gonna willingly give it to her ill get it on my own to give it to her. Its not like my mom is just broke. Its just that she has to many medical problems. She has kidney failure. I been trying to get her the treatment but she wont take it. Still in love wit my dad she lets herself go through the rest of her life depressed. I can tell just by looking at her that its almost her time. Its hard cause she still got the twins. But for some reason she just cant snap out of this. She smoke cigs on the daily. Its like she trying to kill herself faster. 

Man. As i think about it. Tears start to stream down my face. Now im not no pussy or nothing, its just that other than the twins and Queen, my mom is my everything. She just really going through a tough time. "Baby whas wrong."  Queen say running over to me. "Baby talk to me." I dont wanna talk though. I just really dont want my mom to go. But there is really nun i can do. She dont wanna go through life in pain an i dont wanna go through life without her. She made me the strong black man i am today. The man who told me that when i find the one to always call her queen and to treat her right. 

Staying in school. Yea thats my moms doings. But shell never know. She dont wanna know. My father was her everything. But they divorced and she became sick. He remarried and she began to smoke cigs. "Baby, talk to me." She say getting teary eyed. I get up and go sit in the living room. She follows. Sitting wit my head down the phone rings. Queen answers. "Hello... Yea... this is his girlfriend... Ok... oh my gosh... Where are the boys?... Yea you can bring them here... Is she ok?... Oh no no no...  OK ... goodbye." She hangs up the phone. Turns to me. Comes and sits on my lap facing me. Holding my head up she says "Baby." I look at her. "Baby come to the room with me." "Ight." I say getting up.  She walks me to the bedroom. "Go lay on the bed. " I do. She comes and sits on my lap again and faces me. Looking into my eyes she starts to cry harder than me.

So i embrace her with a hug. She then pulls the cover over us. Then sighs. " Baby. Your mom went into a coma. They say she been in one for about 14 hours." "Well lets go to the hospital then." I say trying to get up. She pushes me back down. "Baby your moms hurt shut down two hours ago." The same thing that i was afraid of just hit me like a brick. I was trying to get up but was to weak to even try and get Queen off of me. I just sat there and cried. She cried with me. But even harder 'cause she knew the bond me and my mom had. In her arms i felt comfort and safety. Knowing my mom was gon was just unbeliveable. I didnt want to believe it. 

To good to be true. We sat there for about a good hour before the door bell rang. Then it git me. "Where are the twins Queen?" "Babe that should be them at the door." She says getting up. She pulls me out the bed into the bathroom. Cleaning me up she yells that she was coming. "Baby, im so sorry." She says wiping my face. "Im not crying for her anymore. Im crying for my brothers." She gasps and steps back. Shaking her head she goes to retrieve the door.

That day we just moved the twins in with us and made funeral arrangements. For some reason i wasnt as torn up as i thought. I guess it is just that i knew that her time was near. Aint no crying over that. Atleast she aint suffering no more i guess. "I just dont know how imma try and raise the twins man. I got football and my own life to think of." I say angrily

 N'ya turns to slap me. "How dare you say some selfish shit like that. I should have slapped you harder. I dont know what the hell has gotten into you. But this is not the person i fell in love with. Those two twins you talking about are your damn brothers. This house is big enough for yall." She usually says us. "Ill help out wit them but you better get your shit together, i gotta go i cant believe you." Damn im such an ass hole. "Baby i didnt mean it. I just am scared and i dont want to fail them and lose them or you. I would never say that and mean it. I love them." I say.

Queen sits on the counter and pulls me in for a hug. I embrace the hug pulling her tighter and tighter. Not wanting her or anyone else to leave me. We kiss passionatly and i pick her up and take her to the room across the hall and we make slow emotional love. 

When we get done we both take a shower and go in the twins rooms. And call them out to the living room. "Boys. Um, i know this is a hard time for y'all right now but just bare with me. Im gonna take yall to the mall so yall can get some stuff for yalls first day of school. And N'ya will be moving in with us to help take care of yall." I say bringing her into my arms as she smiles. "Yea, um. I'll drop you guys off and pick you guys up, until you guys are old enough to walk to and from school. You guys might have to move to one of the schools out here so that you'll be closer to us." My baby is taking control. I like it. 

"Actually we already know how to walk everywhere we need to. Just show us the way. And we dont really care what school we go to. They just gotta have a good sports rank. Other than that we dont care. We are in middle school. You can give us a key to the house." "Yea we aint two were about to be 14 remember. On the 30th?" The twins say puzzled. I did forget they age though. But thats ok we got time to catch up. But i couldnt let them know that though. "Nah we know we just aint sure if yall knew the area thats all. Plus we going to make the keys and stuff today. So get dressed so we can head out."

They shake they head and run back up to they room. With in two hours we pulling out of the drive way. Through out the day we just buying up stores.  For the twins and Queen that is. By the end of the day my car is filled bags. Nike, Jordan, Adidas, and that female shit I dont know the names of. This day was filled with pain but we just have to move on with our lives. Me my girl and my brothers.