its raining outside and I am sitting in front of the window and listening to the sound of the rain . The tears running down my face again . I am crying again . I just talked to my mum , my mum is up there in the sky taking care of me . Yes she is dead .She died as I was 3 .
My dad isn't here too but he isn't dead . He is working in London for Modest , his name is Simon Cowell and I am his little secret , yes for sure I don't want to get hate and be destroyed by the press like others but he cant just left me . I was 3 Years old . until I was 13 he face timed me everyday but then it stopped , he promised to call everyday ..
Flashback
"Tara come down , breakfast is ready " my nanny called from downstairs.
That's me Tara collins I am hiding my last name so nobody knows me. I am a strong person and I am proud of who I am .
"Honey are you coming?"
"Oh yes "
I stood up from my couch and walked downstairs into our nice little kitchen . The walls are painted in an grey and the furniture are white . On the walls are a few pictures of my mom and me with my friends .
My nanny sat on one of the two chairs and smiled at me . Her blonde hair is in an messy ponytail and she wore an blue long dress . Her name is Anna and she is 40 Years old . I only need her until I am 18 and that's next year but when I am honest I am not too happy because she is like my second mum .
She stood up and hugged me. "Happy birthday to my beautiful girl"
"thank you soo much " I said wrapping my arms around her , yes its my birthday
"My little Tara is growing up so fast, now you are a big beautiful women , I can still remember as you were this 4 years old girl jumping through the hole house and laughing all the time " I could tell she was fighting with here tears , because I was too.
"But now open up the present before I have to cry" she laughed .
I had a big grin on my face as she gave me here little present , I opened it and it was an necklace with a little heart . It was completely gold
"It is beautiful " I whispered .
"Nobody has ever paid me something so beautiful like this , thank you soo much " I now cried
Flashback end
That was last year on my 17th birthday , that day he forgot to call , since that day he never called again .
"Mum , Anna died last week . I found here dead in her bed .. She was just my second mum . She was always there for me and I miss her ..... sooo soo much . I don't know what I should do without here . She was everything I had left , but now she is gone with everything . With my happiness and with my smile , with the sun and with the stars .
Maybe she is sitting next to you right know , maybe you know and love her too but maybe not . I just hope she is happy wherever she is ." As I said that I hold my little gold heart from the necklace in my hand that I became from here that day .
Then I looked up to the sky again .
"So mum , here funeral is in two days , but I don't know if I am ready for it . I don't know what to say !" I cried
"You would probably say 'Just say what you thing' " I laughed crying .
"But you aren't her
if you were here everything would just be a lot easier , I miss you so much . I feel lonely and I don't feel needed .
I don't feel important , I don't see any reason for me to still be alive . I just lost everything I need and I love the most , I don't have anyone left " I cried
"I miss you two! I love you"
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