Dying For You (Lesbian Story, Girlxgirl)

Chapter One

Emily's POV:

My name is Emily Smith. I'm seventeen. I'm about to start my senior year of high school in a week. I have long, medium brown colored hair. I have greenish blueish eyes. They're kind of hard to describe, but I always get compliments on them. I think that and my smile are the first things people notice about me. I'm about 5'6, wish I was taller. I'm a good weight for my size, and if I do say so myself, have quite a nice body. My personality is great too, I'm the total package. I'm probably one of the nicest people you can meet, unless you get on my bad side. Then I can be one of the bitchiest. What else can I say about myself? Well, I'm a lesbian. Oh, and I happen to be in love with my best friend.

I've known known Danielle my whole life. Our mothers were best friends since high school. She's only about two weeks older then me. So yeah, we literally grew up together. I know everything about her. I know her better then she even knows herself. She's dyed her hair some crazy colors in the past, but her boyfriend likes her long, natural, dark brunette hair color the best. She listens and does everything that he orders her to, so it's stayed that way for a while now. It was blue at one time, red, purple. Any color looked good on her. She has beautiful brown eyes. They glow in the sunlight. She's just so gorgeous. Everything about her. She's a little bit taller then me, probably by about an inch or so. We have the same body type, and damn does she have an amazing body... Sorry I got distracted there for a second. Danielle also has this cute little nose piercing and a bellybutton piercing. That one is just hot. She's a Goddess she's just so beautiful. She has no idea how I feel about her. I try my best to hide it, although it is really hard. I've always known that I loved her, even when I was a kid. I can't help the way that I feel about her. Danielle is the most amazing girl I've ever met. If you knew her, I bet you'd fall in love with her too.

My past relationships have never worked out because of her. I can't really blame her because it's my feelings for her that ruined the relationships, not her herself. I compared all the girls to Danielle, and none of them could even come close. My longest relationship has lasted three months, which was a big deal because most of them only last about a month. I don't know if I'll ever be able to find someone else, because I have already found the right person. Danielle is the girl for me. If she could only see that, I would be the happiest person in the entire universe. I hope that one day she'll see what's been right in front of her this whole time. Or I hope that one day I'll actually have the balls to tell her how I feel. Ew balls. But you get what I mean. It's just terrifying telling someone how you feel, especially when that someone is your best friend. I would never want to lose her. That's what I'm afraid will happen if I tell her how I feel. I would rather have her as a friend then nothing at all.

Ryan is her boyfriend. He's three, almost four years older then her. Of course I still didn't like him when I first met him for obvious reasons like jealousy, but there are a lot of other reasons I absolutely despise him now. After a couple weeks of them dating, I could already tell he was a controlling person. Danielle wouldn't listen to me though, or see it for herself because she loved him. I guess love can blind you sometimes. Things didn't get really bad until they lost the baby. That's when he became physically abusive. His sadness and anger led to him drinking and using heavy drugs. That has fucked up his mind even more. He beats her so bad she looks unrecognizable at times. It breaks my heart to see. I just want to rescue her. There are times when I can save her, but in the end she always goes back to him. I know she's afraid to leave completely, and some part of her still think that he's going to change. He wont, it's been like this for too long. Almost everything she does pisses him off. She could sneeze and it would piss him off. I hate him, I really do. I don't know how anyone could abuse someone they claim to love.

I know, they were supposed to have a baby together. I can't just say something like that without giving any explanation. She got pregnant her freshman year when she was fifteen and he was eighteen. When she told her parents they kicked her out and threatened to call the cops on him. She left and never came back. She hasn't so much as said a single word to them since that day. Ryan had his own place with a friend. The friend moved out, and Danielle moved in. They were so excited for the baby, they even turned the friend's old room into a nursery. They were going to have a little girl. Danielle and Ryan went to one of their appointments, when the doctor told them that she couldn't detect a heartbeat anymore. I know that devastated both of them, they just handled it in different ways. It changed both of them forever, just like it would anyone. My best friend was heartbroken. She couldn't eat, couldn't sleep, couldn't stop crying. I was there to take care of her while Ryan was off cheating and getting fucked up. He hated her for losing the baby and blamed her, although it was in no way her fault. I know that she blamed herself too... She still does actually.