Destiny

Chapter 1

I calmly made my way through the woods taking in every sight, sound, smell, and the overwhelming feeling of content I got every time i stepped foot in the woods. There was a slight overcast today and because of the thickness of the trees barely any light penetrated through the branches giving the woods a dark gloomy feeling fitting of its name Black Grove. I didn't mind though, days where it was overcast, drizzling, or even full on storming were my favorite. The rain was my absolute favorite, the way the sound rolled in and muted everything around you, the calming scent that announced its presence, and mostly the way the rain fell cloaking anything in its reach in a comforting blanket of water. 

It was the best time for me to think or clear my mind. Whenever I needed a break from life or couldn't think right i came to the woods, particularly Black Grove. It became like a second home to me, not to mention it was also the closest forest to the town I lived in. And so I came here as often as possible seeing as how I felt the most at peace when I was among nature, and that was exactly what I needed right now, peace. I suppose to my coworkers I seemed off, which was weird to me seeing as how I am a natural introvert, but none the less they constantly asked me if something was wrong, or if I was okay. But of course being who I am not liking it when people pittied me, or I came across as weak I told them I was okay with the fake 1950's house wife smile to go with it. However, in reality something was wrong.

The days were slowly winding down to the anniversary of when my parents died four years ago. Marking almost four years since i made the decision I would leave my beautiful home in Scotland and venture to America for college. I walk around aimlessly for a while until i feel the first droplets of water descend for the sky. What started as a few drops turns to a steady stream, at this I feel my knees go weak as I sink to the ground with my head resting in my hands. My tears fall down my face just like the rain, slowly at first, then a vicious flood with no intention of calming down anytime soon. As my tears flowed they took with them every emotion I'd been feeling in the past couple of weeks. Fear, love, anger, sadness, and mostly curiosity poured from my heart and soul mingling with the rain and hydrating the dirt below me.

The rain continued its journey from the heavens to the ground and I, having found a tree to lean my body against, stay rooted to my spot. I know it's not the best choice to stay out in the rain, I know there's a high probability I could get sick, but at the moment I simply didn't care. My health didn't matter at the moment, all that did was my past. All the memories crashed into me like a train hitting an unsuspecting car on the tracks having not been able to slow down or stop in time. 

"Why me, why me?" I repeat to myself over and over again. Why did life chose to deal me, out of every person on this forsaken planet, its bad deck of cards? What did I ever do to deserve it? What domino did I unknowingly hit that caused the rest to start toppling down, bringing my happy little life with it? Everything used to be fine, perfect even, then suddenly it all changed. None of it seemed fair to me, I was a good person, or at least I used to be before my life took a left turn down a cliff. That's one of the reasons I have a hard time believing in god. If he's really as righteous and almighty as people love to say he is then why does he let bad things happen to good people?

Why did he let my mom die when she never did a single thing wrong in her life? How could he stand by and watch as an innocent person was slaughtered at the hands of a monster? He doesn't seem very holy to me. After what must have been a few hours I felt the rain come to a stop. I pulled my phone out of my back pocket and checked the time, 10:16 pm I guess I should be getting back to my apartment now. Running my fingers through my soaked hair I took a deep breath before pushing myself off the ground to stand up. For a moment I thought I felt someone's eyes on me but decided to ignore it and head back to my apartment. When I walked in I locked the door and stripped down to just my underwear before crawling into my fluffy feather bed and letting sleep take over.